smrt2run Hey buddy. Sorry that you're having negative feelings. When things are going good I find that I start to almost look for something to worry about. My anxiety has to fill in the gaps or something. The littlest thing can make me really worried.
Did you have to take steroids in the past? It doesn't mean that they will necessarily affect your knees. Try not to talk yourself into worrying about something that will most likely never happen. Change your thoughts, and think about the positive right now -- your great recovery, how good you're feeling now. Try not to anticipate bad stuff which won't come to pass anyhow. Maybe you can occupy yourself somehow with more than sitting and thinking. You had a great time with your friend the other night - can you try to do that more often?
It's a real challenge, keeping positive. Especially when we've been through trauma. And you're young to have gone through this and whatever else you've been through medically. It's easy to say think positive, but the more we think of negative, anxiety provoking things, the more of a habit it becomes for our brain to just go there automatically.
So I need to pull myself up a little, too! I've been down alot. But we can do it! You can do it! You're gonna be great. In two weeks, no more restrictions, you'll be driving, going to the park, walking around, feeling good. The weather will be nice out, you'll be playing frisbee, or whatever. This will all be in the past, especially when you can get out and start living again. I guarantee things are only going to go up for you.
