Thanks,
@Josephine, for your time and sharing such valuable wisdom. I have a PT appointment today, but he hasn't even told me what time he's coming, so I guess I'll have to wait and see--guess it's a good job I don't have a hot date to go anywhere beyond my kitchen today!
I have read and reread your responses to my responses to your questions. You make a lot of sense. I read parts to my husband because he comes from the school of 'Do whatever the doctor tells you to do and don't ask questions.' He and I are very different in that respect. I have asked DH repeatedly to log on to Bonesmart, as well as my mother, and neither of them have. They have now promised to do so. We shall see.
My mother lives overseas, but we talk on the phone every day, so she is always up to date on my progress. She was very cross with me for almost falling whilst looking for her letter but on the flip side of that she seems have forgotten how much pressure she put on me asking almost every day if I'd looked for it yet. My response to her each time was something like this, "mum, I was in a lot of pain and then I slept for hours on end then I felt sick to my stomach, and had diarrhoea for an hour, then went back to sleep. I'm weak, and I'm in pain. I was able to get a bit of dinner down, but I just cannot move. My leg is on ice right now and I can feel myself needing to sleep again," then she'll say something like, " I know, love, but when you get the chance, please take a look because I really need that letter."
So when I felt so good on Tuesday after my acupuncture appointment I decided to try and find the letter. I couldn't find it but almost fell in the process. This caused me a setback yesterday, which made me feel awful and depressed and now my ankle hurts as well as my knee.
I felt so ill yesterday, and the pain level was out of control. I am now completely out of Percocets and fear asking my doctor for more because he was reluctant to give me my last refill. I still have Norco to fall back on so I've started taking those. My PCP is in the same network at my OS so their computer access shows all medication and communication between me and them. My PCP will see that my OS said he did want me to get addicted to narcotics and she most likely will not go against his wishes.
My husband is besides himself with sleep deprivation because I need ice in the night and medication and he's getting a bit short tempered with me. On the one hand, he's annoyed if I ask him to get me something I need and on the other hand, he's annoyed if I try to do it myself because I don't want to disturb him.
I have told him from the get go that we should sleep in separate rooms so I don't disturb him with my tossing and turning. I can call him on his cellphone if I need him, but he won't have it. Now he's starting to think that's not such a bad idea.
I am nervous about my PT appointment today because no one will be here except me. In my current emotional at state I feel pretty vulnerable, especially when I'm alone. I know I need to tell my pt that I will not be letting him push my knee back and that is going to be problem. Wish me luck.
Meanwhile, I lodged a formal complaint against the spine PA and doctor, and their office manager was very curt with me. I think that may have contributed to my feeling so bad yesterday. She seriously seemed more concerned that I'm moving forward with a formal complaint than by the fact that a member of her staff treated me so badly. She said she will speak to her staff to hear their side of story but she hoped I would change my mind about the complaint and give her office another chance. I told her they'd had all the chances they'd be getting from me. When I asked if I would be getting any summary of the outcome of her investigation, she responded with a flat, but emphatic "NO". So I told her that this would be yet another reason why I will not be coming back to their office as she clearly was not being transparent in her alleged attempts to resolve the issue. Not a happy camper today, but I'm sure I'll get over it. Thanks for letting me vent.
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