So sorry you are feeling so blue.....I do believe that those of us who are single and used to doing everything on our own are particularly disheartened when we can't take total care of ourselves. I stayed with a friend for a few days after my surgery. She was wonderful, but I was having such a hard time----a combination of a bad reaction to pain meds coupled with the sense of being helpless and in pain. At 5 days out I returned to my own home where I had friends and family nearby to check in on me if needed. The second I hit my own door I felt so much better emotionally. For me, I believe that that translated to improved physical healing as well. I am wondering if something like this might be an option for you? Sometimes a change of scenery or a change in what we are doing helps. Obviously I don't know your situation, but I can relate to what you are feeling. I hope things start picking up for you.