I am very sorry that you're on that emotional roller coaster. I've had 13-15 surgeries, 8-10 were orthopedic. Both hips in 2011, three months apart. Even though I had been through shoulder, knee, ankle, and biceps surgery I was very nervous for my first hip. I did know that physical therapy was the number one most important thing for me. I stayed in a nursing home after both hips because you get two a day PT sessions. I broke my foot the first week of the first hip. It was challenging. Watch the pain meds. Codeine gives me bad dreams, vicodin has no affect. Sitting in the nursing home can get boring, lonely and a bit depressing. Also, the criticism of the girlfriend for hip #1 didn’t help. I didn’t ask for her help on hip#2 and felt much better about myself. My suggestions: Whatever you need to do to motivate yourself to get the PT, DO IT. PT is #1 in my book. It will make you feel better, more confident when you see the improvements, albeit slowly. Watch what meds you use. Advil should do fine by now except when you stretch the scar tissue in the Gluteus Medias (posterior approach). Get the right support people but try not to lean on them too much. Be tough. It’s a major surgery. I watched videos of the procedure before I had it. Might not be a good idea for everyone. Read other people’s posts. See how many have gone on to active lives. You can do it. Good luck.