I just relized that in 2011 was when my hip was done. Wow it healed faster than my knees. I understand why but it still surpises me. Last night it was cold and damp and my hip this morning was not to happy about it. Its a little tinder but not enough to make a deal out of it. Let me see I had it done in 13 September 2012.

That was about 15 month ago. Wow time does fly by. I know at the time of the surgrey the pain was really bad.

My pain wasn't controled at all. I would go and cry myslef to sleep.

I was in a nursing home where I could hardly get around the room was smalled. One cold morning I woke up and found we didn't have a heater and the room was so cold.

That was the final blow. I called my daughter and told her to get me out of here. The food was ok if you like l001 diffenert ways to serve cereal I found myself not touching cereal for over a year after I got out of there.

I do like cereal but not for two meals a day. I was surprised that when I got home I had lost weight. All the meal were very high calarie and lots of starch. And the deserts were large amount. When I had to go the bathroom I couldn't use my walker in one place because it didn't have enough room to fit.

Thank goodness I didn't fall.

I remember I would get my walker and head for the fish tank in the hall. I don't know how many times I feel asleep in front of the tank..

I joined the site in November of that year to find how I could get out of the mess I was in. When I found the site I was very concerned about telling people about myslef and troubles. So I started out very slow. :rolleyes: I was not a computer person and to be honest not sure I wanted to be.

So I did post very little at first not saying much except I hurt. I also knew I had one more knee that needed to be done and there were times I didn't think I would get strong enough to be able to have it done.

I was really in a deep depression and couldn't see how to get out of it. Two months before surgrey I had to have my dog put down.

She just couldn't keep going any more. She was 16 and very sick and tired and her organs were closing down.

I told myself that when I could get around after the surgrey I would get another dog. What I didn't know was my knee to be done was the worse of all three. So by the time it got done I was almost thinking of gettting wheel chair and saying thats it.

The thought of getting a dog was so far from my mind. My other knee which was done a in 2010 was a mess. It was so swollen and sore. I could bend it but with so much pain. I really didn't have hope for much better life. Then slowly I wrote here on the site and found some wonderful people and before I knew I started getting hope. When I said I hurt, I was heard and ideas came in to help the pain and how to sleep.

It took lots of tears and support from this site that I made it. Nine months after the hip being done I had my left knee done and a true new life came about.

The hip surgrey is a memory and slowey is coming out. I was in so much pain I really had no hope. You will notice I keep saying that because that was where I was. I was also having horrible stomach trouble with no one addresses it. Finally after getting out of the hospital I got it addressed so at least I was able to eat. As I got better I found most of my pain was stomach and my knees not my hip. Now I really am glad for that. I was very scared that my life was not going to be good so just how hard should I fight for it. As I got more at ease on this site I found hope. And the next thing I knew it I was starting to face my knee replacement. And when I walked in to have it done I finally had hope that things would be better and more controled with pain. the only good thing about the hip was it got done. Now that I look back the hip did very good and the healed faster than my two knees. This morning I realized I had never really written about my hip in detail so today I decided to tell it because not all surgries are good, perfect and not everything does go well.

If I had all the other issues adresses it would be great because it was the easiest one out of the three. But you need to know it. Its ok to come here and know that you can tell people you are in trouble and that your sugrey wasn't good. Most of all you got problems. Not little ones but major ones. Here on the site there are people that will help you and support you in ways you never knew was possible. Yes they can't phyically hug you but knowing that they are there when all the pain is so overwhelming all you want is one moment of not hurting. So do come here and tell your story no matter what kind of story it is. We will help you and because all of us have had difference stories I am pretty sure you can find someone who understands and be able to reach out in a caring and loving way. I found that writing this story about the hip there is still pain which will be taken care of. I will get a jar and write my story in it, then seal it and take it out to my Gods Garden. That is where I bury the jars and therefore give it to God and let him take care of it. Now that I am in Apartments I take it out to the wet lands were I live near and write my story and put it on a carrot or some type of food and let the animals eat it. I don't need it anymore and the animals could use the food so its a win for both me and the animal. Well now the story about my hip has been done and it is now in the past and it doing excellent. So everyone please know it does get better but patience is needed and maybe lots of it. Take care Tashia