Janet,
I'm so so sorry your experiencing so much pain, it's so difficult for many to understand... However, it's even harder for the one experiencing the pain, and health problems to comprehend. All of it can eventually take a real toll on you physically and emotionally.
I understand if you don't feel up to posting since your going through so much, and have been for long time.... But if your feeling overwhelmed, and you can only type a short amount at a time due to the restless arms, then please know that everyone on Bonesmart cares about you, and you need the support more then ever when your feeling down or overwhelmed. If you were here, I'd give you a big hug and tell you it's ok to feel upset about all that you've been through, and I'd reassure you that I'm here for you to lean on... but since we can't do that physically, please except my cyber hug to you.
It is the natural kindness and compassion that most people have in their hearts that we are all born with to want and desire to pick up another if they fall down, and although what your going through isn't as though you have fallen down, it's the same thing in the way others desire to hold you up, and pick you up during difficult times.
I'm praying for you and sincerely hope to see you posting again.