So sorry you are continuing to have all this difficulty,
@Jockette. You certainly do not deserve it, well no one would. But you have tried so many different ways and have worked on being patient and letting things play out. If it were me, I would just get an appointment set up, which would then release my energy so that I wouldn't have the nagging "should I or shouldn't I" thing going on. (You could always cancel the appointment if as you get closer in time it doesn't feel right.) You've got all your X-rays and reports, so really your only footwork at this point is to make the appointment. And I agree that the PA is not who I would want to spend my first visit talking to. Neither of my doctors, my first potential OS and then the one who actually became my OS, handled things that way. With my first OS, before I had reached the scheduling surgery stage, I saw the PA after the initial visit for the shots. But once the surgery stage was reached, the doc was the one I saw.
I still have difficulty with stairs at 8 months. My knees are so cute, they spread out the difficulty between them. Such funny girls. Lefty does not like going down stairs, and righty dislikes even more, going up stairs. In fact, righty causes me to have to help myself up with the handrail when I go up the stairs after my walk. It really bothers me that this is still happening at 8 months, especially when I do what we shouldn't do, and that is compare myself to what I read about others' recoveries - lol.
Whatever you decide Jockette, we are here for you. You are so helpful and kind to everyone else on this site. Keep us in the loop every step of the way. Hugs.