@marmora
hello Cathie!
It seems to me like you are being a bit too hard on yourself! You are doing quite well with all your outings and activities. Some things just take time. Also, I want to congratulate you on your five year news! I had no idea you had been dealing with that.
As for your knees feeling foreign, I bet that will pass before long. I felt like there was something other than a knee in there for a long time. Now, it feels far more normal. In fact, I dare say Dan's accident pushed me over the edge on my recovery. It's as if I don't have time to think about it real hard.
I sure wish I had time to be at the gym, I miss it tremendously. However, it will be after the Thanksgiving holiday before I will have time, if then.
Oh, almost forgot to mention....I was using ice every night in my ice pump until the clot was found. I had to switch to a heat pad just below the knee. Doc said elevate and warm compresses. I truly think that has helped me more than anything at this point. I am still having periods of super stiffness and a bit of pain, but nothing that even sends me to the Aleve bottle.
You, like the rest of us, will be just fine. Keep the faith! Mary