To anyone out there who is getting too focused on the *numbers*, my advice would be to stop that. My ROM is 0°-143°, and you know what, it means nothing at this point! I still have swelling, I still have pain, which is mostly along the inside of my thigh and knee, so clearly the numbers aren't indicative of much at this point, at least in my opinion.
I'm frustrated that I am still dealing with these issues. To be honest, there is a part of me that wants to say "the heck with everything, I might as well just do things that I want/enjoy, like playing sports, because I have pain and swelling anyway, and at least if I was doing those things I would have something to blame it on." I haven't actually crossed the line from turning that thought into action, but I do have the thought more frequently these days.
Yes, my gait is fine, as people seem to have the need to comment on this frequently when I am at work, and I would love for them to deal with Spence for a day and then tell me how *great* I am doing. But I try to be polite and just let them know that in spite of appearances Spence is still healing, swollen and creating pain. So I find myself trying to limit my time around people as much as I can. I am introverted and have a tendency to keep to myself in general, but I am getting close to crossing the *hermit* line that
@kmak81230 talked about. I know that doing so would likely be even more detrimental to my overall well being and health, but not sure if I care right now.
Yes, I know that a positive attitude is important, and that
@Pheebs52 is right about not dwelling on such things, but I am *positive* that this
! Maybe it's the weather, or the fact that I have been having more migraines recently (most of which have been triggered by changes in barometric pressure), or the fact that I am just plain tired/exhausted most of the time in spite of the narcolepsy meds, or maybe it's just Spence that has got me to this place. I'm not sure it even matters. Will my mood improve? Yes, maybe later today, maybe tomorrow, maybe next week, but it will happen at some point.
@Lil Cyborg, I appreciate Bob's attempts to get Spence on board with things! I hope that Bob is behaving better for you than Spence is for me!
Can't get comfortable to sleep. Spence hurts, quad hurts, and I dud nothing but baby him all weekend. 
Frustrating for sure, hoping this curve in recovery straightens back out again soon! 
I hadn't thought Spence was doing too much, but it is possible that everything just caught up to him, or I aggravated things by trying to "massage" it out most of the day on Friday. 
No crouching, skipping, or anything today. Tomorrow on the other hand will require more physical activity as people need to learn how to escape from volatile and aggressive clients. 
I am hoping that it doesn't take too much longer to settle down. 
and hang onto the mysterious and elusive *someday it will get better*!
Pain and swelling have decreased, though not gone completely. I am not even sure at this point that either will ever go away completely. 
I just haven't been able to ice and elevate as much as I have probably needed to since returning to work.
Needless to say, I will be snuggling up with the ice packs tonight again. 
Still taking Tylenol daily as well, which is also frustrating as I was able to get along without it a couple of weeks ago.
So it seems that I will still qualify for my very own med cart when I get to the *home*!
I really shouldn't complain too much, as my *problems* with Bionic Spence seem so trivial when I see the struggles many are dealing with. So I think that I will just use that cocktail shaker to mix my chocolate milk tonight and continue bonding with ice pack!
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