Sooo I still have to balance out my days. Yesterday I cleaned the pantry & did the washing. Not much I thought. However today the whole leg not just the knee was so fatigued plus my good leg and the knee was swollen and stiff. Had to cancel an apt in the city, as just didn't feel confident driving that far. Would of been my furthest drive yet and in busy traffic.
Feeling flat today and just frustrated with my progress. I've been having little meltdowns all day and not realising I was doing it, till hubby started laughing when I was getting so frustrated with the cane constantly falling over where I put it... grrrrrrrrrrrr!!! Then fleeing the gel packs!![emoji33]
I did end up going out and doing some errands plus I went grocery shopping on my own first time and it was a decent shop, I have been doing online shopping mainly. It took so bloody long.
Just feel like I've gone backwards or stopped going forward this past week. My bend isn't increasing, I think it's still around 100. Tried to measure it Saturday using an app on the phone and it said it was at 92... that can't be right!!!?
I think it's my hip abductors too, the hip joints are so sore and my lower back just a little poke in certain spots causes pain.
The knee buckling and my quads are spasming at times when walking, makes me nervous with no cane.
I'm walking 20-30mins each day, I'm on the stationary bike for 10mins each day about 2-2.5km. I haven't been concentrating on my pt bends or lifts as just been doing the above and the leg lifts hurt my hips. Although I can do a control straight leg lift plus bent knee lifts and can lock the knee with ease. So they're all positives.
I know I'm doing more and pain is mainly non-existent most of the time but at 14wks I should be doing better, shouldn't I?
Do I call the OS and say I'm concerned with my bend?
I just been thinking more more about doing the ivf transfer in the next 3mths but am I stupid in thinking I need to be able to bend???? No don't answer that, of course I do. Turning 43 and wanting to see if these embryos will work before we try egg donor is on my mind, we are running out of time. Don't get me wrong doing my knee was the best decision before trying the embryos, as having a young child (and I know by your journeys it is) would have been tough going. This ivf journey has been 11yrs already.
The show just has to get on the road! I just thought before the surgery I'd be closer to transferring than I am. As you can tell I'm beyond frustrated with my body!!
Going to put my name down for relief teaching next term too which is in 3wks, which will help my bored frustrated brain too, but concerned the school may see me as a liability currently.
I do see professionals to chat with too, so I do care for this overactive tired brain.
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