Hope everyone had a grand Easter and nice little break with friends and family.
So tonight I moved to my parents for the next 10 days while hubby is overseas for work.
I got here though and became very emotional, completely overwhelmed. My 6wk old niece was crying as she had had her first injections today (poor bubba) and wasn't happy. My mum, her mum (my sister) and my other sister were doing things for her and I just sat there and thought... I'm going to be a burden.
Also leaving my nesting place, where I was in a rhythm with things and hubby not really wanting to go overseas and me not wanting him to go... it just got too much. They didn't see me crying to hubby (I tried not to in front of him either) which made him not want to leave even more (which I knew it would), going to miss him. Geez sookylala!! [emoji24]
Today wasn't the best day either my thigh (calf and ankle no swelling) has swelled over the past couple of days and is so achy, really uncomfortable, making it difficult to lift, bend, walk etc. Tender in buttocks, hamstrings, groin and quads.
Physiotherpist measured it and it's 4cm larger than my left. I'm booked in for doctor in the morning to get it checked.
Trying to elevate as much as possible (and still icing 90% of the time) but I have a nerve issue I think from my lower back (noticed past week) that is causing numbness to go from hip to toes when elevated down back of leg, even happens when it's flat at times..any other suggestions on what I could do to elevate? Tried different ways but I don't seem to be able to avoid the numbness.
I can't pinpoint anything to cause swelling, except the numbness/nerve pain. Although one new thing is I have been sitting in front seat of car now and not legs outstretched across back seat which is so much better, but that isn't a big bend and doesn't cause an uncomfortable stretch of the knee or thigh. Did 5 straight leg raises last Thursday but none since as my quads still need to get stronger to keep leg straight, if it was this exercise I should of known sooner, yes?
She also said I have 2weeks to get my knee bending to 90degrees, I'm around 75 (was 85 when I left hospital) I know I can and have got more bend but the swelling limits the bend and it always seems to be more swollen when pt visits!
Getting a little worried that I'm not going to be past 90 degrees when I see OS on May 2nd or that I'm not progressing like others... I know we all heal at individual rates but it's hard not to compare.
My dad had a partial knee replacement at 60 and he (stupidly) was walking with no crutches to go to toilet from d4 after op... my scar is twice the size of his too.. it just goes through my head I'm 20 years younger than he was.. I know mine had more damage and was a total replacement so I really shouldn't be comparing but again it's hard not to think but...
It's just 2 steps forward and 3 steps backwards again. I know it's the marathon and not a sprint and feeling down because hubby is gone and I've had to move to my parents but just having a recovery just SUCKS day.
Tomorrow is a new day and I'll dust myself off and put my big girl panties on.
Thanks for reading the essay.. feeling better after venting too [emoji846]
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