Ooh I'm so mad!..... a whole chunk of the above post I wrote disappeared. Aaaarghhhh.
I wrote that I was sorry for not being around much yesterday. I decided to complete a 40 page Personal Independence Payment form. I thought well, why not? With my knee, asthma, angina and hearing it was worth a try for. They'll probably throw it out but it's worth a shot. It is not means tested but evidence based. It took me eight hours!!! I cried with frustration and also panicked because it was so hard and beyond my concentration to cope with. My daughter came in and she was so shocked at the state is got myself into. She said "mom, this is not like you. "You do forms like this with no problem. We have always come to you with any forms or important documents." I cried. I couldn't cope with it. I realised just how foggy my brain is at this point. Anyhow, my daughter stayed and helped me complete this form. My husband also had to write a letter about what he has to do for me care wise when I'm at home on a really bad day and all the running about to the hospital. Chest clinic, GP etc. Then my daughter out the thing into the post. He wrote about how antisocial I'm becoming at home and not wanting to see people and things. He's right. I've put friends off before. It's because I cannot be bothered. I'm so not myself and yet when I'm in Wales I'm fine. It's just here. His sister has phoned to call me about something and I gesture to him that tell her I'm asleep. I've done it with my work colleagues too. None of this is in my nature and I am certain it is the Morphine.
Love Nana moon 27 xxx