Hi all. Yaay I got a few longer naps in the night. I'm very tired still. Knee still aching but I think now maybe we're going onwards and upwards again. This worst part is the stiffness! The pain and stiffness now is more across the knee cap so this'll be another day of the mantra.
Going out for dinner last night, although I wasn't comfy, did help mentally but I was so relieved when I got home. I've no plans for today so gentle pottering about the house will be the other order of the day besides the mantra!!!!
Please everybody be careful with the stairs, take your time they'll always be there! It's not worth this kind of pain I've had. Worse still the morphine that I'd cut right down on, I had to double to pain manage effectively x x x that was a big disappointment but it was necessary and as I said previously I'm not messing about any more laying the pain hero, it's not worth it.why suffer? I will take whatever meds as necessary to ensure I'm relatively pain free. My problem with the morphine is I've never liked the feeling of it right from September,, when it was first prescribed, due to my immunity to Tramadol, Co-codamol, Dihydrocodeine! I don't like the sensation in my head. On higher doses when I first came out if hospital I was on 90mg a day. It causes weird sleep. Like I'd close my eyes and people would be asking me questions and I HAD to answer them. Another time I sat watching water dripping through my kitchen ceiling. My eldest daughter asked what was I looking at and I told her. Her and her sister looked in shock at each other and said mom is there water on the floor ? when I looked there wasn't obviously. They made me go bed and sleep it off. How anybody can enjoy taking this stuff is beyond me and this was why I tried begging my GP to get me off it. His argument was why would I take you off something that manages your pain effectively. He didn't want to risk putting me back in the other meds in case I was still immune. I don't get this on the lower doses that is been taking prior to the stair incident.
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although some are lucky and manage to sail through this recovery, by and large, most have challenges both big and small. Some are better at hiding them or not letting them get the best of them, but a lot of us feel overwhelmed and defeated. It's such a big adjustment having to learn to walk again, having to learn to walk with robot parts, learning new limitations, the set backs, the triumphs, the not knowing what each day will bring. All we can do is to do our best. No one but us knows what that is. I promise that things will get better my friend. One of these days we'll look back and laugh. I hope 
