Your wound is like deja vu for me! I am the type of person that likes/has to look at the stuff that's going on, like wounds, scars, needles, etc...so I had taken pictures from day one. Personally, I'm glad I did because when I get down, I can look at the first few and see how much better it looks and feels.
I totally understand how you feel about feeling "icky" or weird (whichever word works) about having a wound like that. When they did my first dressing change, I couldn't believe that I had this huge, gaping wound on my leg and I barely felt it or knew that it was that big! It was definitely a surreal experience, that's for sure.
It will get smaller, but the wound does look nice and "beefy," which is a good thing I'm told!
Jen