I feel better everyday...sometimes by the end of the night it seems like the entire day catches me, and the anxiety, pain, and frustration catches me and i have a little break down. My family has been wonderful in thise moments though, helping me to bed, getting me settled, and dosed with pain meds, then 1 of them lays with me until the pain medicine kicks in and I settle down. god bless my 10 year old little girl, she was here with me last night while dad and brother were out doing something, & I had one of those nights probably the worst one yet. she helped move all my stuff back to the bedroom... ice machine.. my water ..my pain medicine everything. helped me get into bed and get settled, she kept telling me don't cry Mom it'll be okay I'm here to help you!! I told her I was so sorry, but I was having a little bit of a breakdown, she took my face in her little hands looked me straight in the eye, and said mom you're the strongest lady I know, this is a really hard thing you're going through, and it's going to be ok! God love her she did a wonderful job,I have never been so proud of her as I was in that moment. so today about 145 when I took that dose of pain medicine I headed back to the bedroom and settled into my bed never did really fully fall asleep, it was just really comfortable and relax with the TV on. hoping that little bit will help me from having one of those moments again tonight.