Tonight I went back and read my hip in recovery. Wow what a journey. Ups and downs and ups and downs, etc, etc, etc, I remember writing about the pain, the horrible pain. Well the fact that I need two hip replacements and two knee replacements. Pain was horrible. Then the feeling of feeling tired. No wonder I was so tired. I remember after my hubband died I felt like I could sleep for weeks with I did and felt so much better. Then the cancer and and the messs. I haven't had a break since. As I get ready for this upcoming surgiery I know I am already so much better. I am not so tired that I can't think about it all the time. I am tired but not so bad I could sleep a year. Since 2006 Cancer, 2010 only four later a knee replacement, The next year hand surgrey and hip, And fixing up my house because of the pipe break. No wonder I was sooo tired. Now in 2014 a hip surgrey for the left and then I will be finished. I mean finished. All surgry done, Cancer free, Living in a apartments so my life is so much easier. So much has happened but now its is what it is. I have the apartment almost all done. My sewing room is unblieable to say the least. My fabric are all sorted and in the right place. My patterns are all in file and all I have to do is go to the file and there they are. Wow. I had a Thanksgiving that I loved for the first time in years with kittens to play with. I have a car that drives so great and has wonderful gas milliage. I have also lost weight and feeling great. Yes I have aches and pain still in the stomach which I do like but I believe it will get better when the hip is done. Yes I am in pain and waiting for a hip replacemeant but never in the pain I had before a replacement. I am so greatful of coming this far and know I still have more to go but its in sight. I also very greatful for the friends that I have made here. I really feel that I have friends in so many countries the true world is so small. I have some big plans that will come true but first things first I need the hip done. I know things aren't perfect but they are soo much better than when I came here. Things could be better but I truly accept what is today. I was able to drive today and sit out in the sun for a hour. It felt so good to breath the fresh air and know that all is well. After the surgrey which is next Tuesday is over I will be able to know that its over. I can truly in time get a dog and be able to walk it without the bone on bone pain. Life is great. I believe that if you don't have good health you don't have anything. I also belive that everyone needs friends that will listen and also laugh when you need too. I have both so WOW it's good to be alive. I hope everyone is ok with the weather the way it is. I will try to get all the sun I can so that you know its still there. Hee, Hee, Stay safe and know that all the hills will be climbed and all will turn out the way they are surpose to. Believe it., Tashia