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@Layla. There’s no way I could stand for several hours, let alone for a full shift. And carrying stuff at work, that’d be too hard too. TBH it’s all becoming a bit of a grind. Despite the good physio report the plateau I’m on appears infinite, although I’m sure in the end it won’t be. It just feels like this now.
All the way through I’ve done and continue to do everything I can to help the knees (and I) to recover and I often remind myself I’m only 25% in of a year long recovery. There’s still discomfort, pain at times, and a lot of stiffness. I massage the scars and apply scar cream daily. Some days I massage the muscles too. I do the extension stretches several times a day for the left leg and am now trying to extend the walking stride every so often.
The bone swelling the physio talks about appears to be the issue so I must keep hoping this improves asap. Meanwhile I keep busy and active with something community based to go out to, several x week, and lots of knitting/crafting, jigsaws and chores at home.
I have lived enough life to know this too will pass, and also that it’s too much to hope for a definitive timescale. It’s often darkest before the dawn, so here’s hoping the dawn is coming nearer. I’m ok really, I guess I just hoped and expected I’d be further on by now, especially as I’ve been so meticulous in the planning and execution. All bodies react individually and I guess mine just needs more time so it’s back to the PATIENCE MUSCLE.
I really, really miss having tea in bed in the morning, I can’t yet carry a cup upstairs, and I’m desperately longing for a bath, I can’t get in/out. Oh and to not think about the knees all the dashed time.
I’m keeping the faith, I’m just awake at silly o’clock and blathering. I’m normally one of the most positive and resilient people you could meet, and 3 months in this recovery is becoming one lengthy challenge.
PS I AM celebrating the little wins too - driving to see the family and back, walking a bit further, going up stairs alternating legs etc, etc.
Onwards….