hello all
it’s the end of my 28th day post-op. slthings have been going ok, there are some bright spots and of course some unpleasant ones.
my scar is gnarly looking. my PT has been massaging it to break up the glue and the tightness underneath, and it makes it feel so much better. but a lot of glue is still hanging on, big pieces sticking up, but of course i’m leaving them alone. the skin all around the scar is so dry and kind of peeling. i can see some parts where the glue is gone and the scar itself looks clean and thin, but it’ll be a while til the whole thing is healed for sure.
i love my physical therapist, she’s gentle and always asks if she can do something and if i say no, she respects that and stops. i’ve been riding the bike there and have been making full revolutions which feels so amazing. today she moved the seat closer and i was able to do it with that too. obviously, because i like her so much, she’ll be gone in the fall when i hopefully get my left knee done. that’s always how it goes.
i’ve been able to make little super simple dinners for me and my 83 year old mother, who i take care of. the other day it was eggs and sausage for dinner and then i washed the dishes and i felt so accomplished, as if i’d just cooked a huge thanksgiving meal.
i’m still using my walker but not really putting any weight on it, the therapist is concerned about my other knee and wants me to take it slowly. i’m ok with that. in our kitchen, which is pretty small, i’m able to just move without any assistance and that feels so good to be able to do. i’m terrified of falling, i have a lot of fear to undo at some point in the future when it’ll be time to trust my new knee (s.)
i was able to stop the oxycodone 2 weeks ago and just use my pain medicine i’ve been on for over a decade. it doesn’t work as well as the oxy but i’m way more clear-headed.
sleep…that little devil…so elusive. i’ve moved back into my bed because my recliner was starting to feel like a torture device. i have such a hard time sleeping on my back so i’ve been trying on my side, it’s not easy and i can’t last more than about 1/2 an hour or so, but hopefully i’ll be able to build it up a bit more each time.
mentally i’m doing way better than when i first got home and felt trapped and claustrophobic and said i would never have that surgery again. my left knee hurts more than my new knee now and i do want to go on to get it replaced as well, otherwise what was the point. i see my OS in 2 weeks and we’ll see what he says for a possible time frame.
my days are all some version of light exercises, helping get simple meals together, ice ice ice and elevation. i’ve made strides in becoming more patient because i can see it’s really best for me in the end.
well, it’s time to get into bed and start the ridiculous song and dance of attempting to sleep. i want to thank all of you for the wisdom you share here, it has been such a huge help
