I thought I'd share this discovery in case anyone else with MRIphobia might find it useful:
I mentioned in an earlier post that I developed the Lucy Ricardo Method (LRM) for MRI Prep. Play YouTube video of MRI machine soundsxat high volume, while lying still on your bed with a box over your head.
And I learned that the sounds, which for me are never masked by a headphone set, are a lot of the reason for my panic. What I did was just "go toward" each type of clang, bang, and horn. The discord and cacophony is truly a Hellscape for me.
So I named each type of sound as I imagined it: Machine Gun Kelly, Blitzkrieg, Abandon Ship, Evacuate the Building, Clown Car Horn, etc. As I named each, I grew less panicked by it. They were just "sound effects" not sounds designed to trigger fight/flight.
The other trick is do NOT look into "the box." Just lie down, close your eyes, then breath deeply as you "go into the tube." Wait for the sounds instead. As if you'd wait for a song to start. When they do start, my mind lifts because I've named these sounds. There's Machine Gun Kelly, oh, and there's the Blitz of London's South End. (What do we do? Keep calm and Carry On.) When Clown Car blasts, it's all I can do not to laugh inside my box.
Anyway, I think I've always conceived of the MRI as a spatial issue (I'm alive in a closed coffin), but for me the noises the coffin made were a lot of the problem, even though I was wearing headphones.
I finished three sessions of LRM yesterday and actually found myself looking forward to the varying sounds. In this case, familiarity is not breeding contempt. It's relaxing me.
As for opening my eyes in that scanner: no way. In my head, I'll tell myself I'm in the Amazon box while lying on my bed at home. No coffin. Just a cardboard box with my address on it.
That, plus a Xanax and friend in the room? I'm hoping I've dine my due diligence! So embarrassing to waste the radiologist's time. And such a waste to put myself through that stress!
Will continue doing LRM until the day of the scan, early next week, I assume.