So i spoke to my OS's secretary last Tuesday and she said my bone scan results were back and she would get OS to look at them, by Friday I had heard nothing so phoned her back. She told me that OS hadn't yet looked at results, that no I couldn't know what was in the results without seeing him and that he was really busy! I pointed out that I have been very patient, going to SOS appointment in October, being told by registrar that I was 'too young to want another operation' that I had physio which didn't work, was offered a walking aid by physio in November, that I was still trying to work, that I have no sick pay left, that I am taking naproxen, paracetamol and codine to get through any day where I do anything more than sit at home and then I got a bit emotional and cried - I didn't want to cry as I hate becoming emotional as I am someone who is very good at appearing happy and coping when in public and keep it all in for private times but at that moment I had just had enough and couldn't keep it in!
Two hours later she phoned to say could I come in on Tuesday (tomorrow) to see OS! Which I was relieved with (and then a bit cross that it had taken so much to get an appointment!) so now I have an appointment I wait to see what is what.
A part of me is wanting the bone scan to show something is wrong not that I want anything to be wrong but I KNOW something isn't right, and whilst I don't WANT surgery I do want to live a full life and be able to do things again as I am currently so limited so something certain would be good rather than all the ifs, buts and what ifs!
I am at a bit of a loose end as to what to ask tomorrow but I will try to be assertive and ask lots about what he has to say!
Sorry about such a rambling post but just had to get it all down here.
Shortie x