I really wish I could borrow energy from the future to use now, then rest more in a week or so. I have so many lovely opportunities to celebrate with friends and family, but no energy to do it.
Movie was great, Little Women. But I was so uncomfortable, even in the comfy seats with the ottomans and my camping pillow. Sad. Sad. Sad.
Today, we really need to visit with my mother-in-law who lives 40minutes away. She’s a great mother-in-law, and we love her and she deserves the effort. I’m going to do it, but I’m very, very anxious about the discomfort, and I’ve had to say I wouldn’t go to my friend’s Chanukah party because I don’t think I’ll be up for it after the car trip and visit.
Tomorrow my cousins come from California, staying at an Air B and B, so that’s helpful. But they can be exhausting. So, I think they’re going to eat any energy I have for another friend party on Saturday.
Very sad to be narrowing my social life. I know it will come back, but it makes me blue.
Meanwhile, healing seems to be steady and slow. I’m grateful for how manageable it seems to be. I just wish I could do everything I want to do!