Hi
@dogchick
Go with your idea of trying to talk directly with your OS about ordering additional PT. It may work!
I'm glad you have the cookie baking and decorating to look forward to since you enjoy it.
Has it been suggested you try Light Therapy for the seasonal affective disorder you seem to suffer from?
Is your Vitamin D level low? If you're unaware, have it checked to see if you need to supplement.
Consider cleaning up your diet...if it needs attention.
Do whatever you need to do in an effort to keep your stress level down.
Instead of looking at the glass as half empty, let's look at it as though it's half full. The school year is just about half over when you return after Christmas break. Yay
halfway point and you're doing it.
You'll make it. Look forward to making a change for next school year...if it's in the cards.
Schedule some therapy sessions, get a fresh perspective and some tools from a neutral party who deals with
situations like yours on a daily basis. Do it for yourself for the New Year. Tell yourself it's going to be your year to get yourself back on track. Diet, exercise, mental and emotional health. All of it. You can do it, so stop sabotaging yourself.
Just think how much better you could feel by Summer vacay. It's attainable and only five months away! I think the first step is you make the phone call yourself. You don't need your niece to come over and do it. Let that be your first goal /victory. You make the call yourself. You can do it! Don't use the excuse you're feeling better either because you're only procrastinating. Dig in and work through whatever is getting you down in life. Your year...remember?
You don't need a mall to walk in, nor do you need to walk outside in inclement weather. You have the perfect place to exercise / walk in circles. THE SCHOOL where you work. Go early when the halls are dead, or stay late.
I understand you're hurting, disappointed, in a funk. I'm sorry for that and I want to see you feeling healthier mentally and physically and ultimately happier. You just need to start chipping away at some of this. You'll feel better just knowing you're being proactive. We care. We're here for you and will continue to be. I hope you have a peaceful day and a lovely Christmas!
Sending love and a warm hug your way.
hate to hear you are struggling.
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Let it out! Go for a drive, into your bathroom or bedroom and have a good old cry when you need to. If it were me, I'd save my family from it, at least my kids. It can scare them, cause them to worry, feel helpless, make them moody, etc. Share with hubs, call a friend or family member, talk to a counselor. Whatever you need to do to get through it. And yes, there are those with worse problems, there always will be but that doesn't change that you're in a funk and you need to find your way out. You need to take care of yourself. You will get through this. Use the forum, I'm sure many can relate, we're here and we care.
Prayers today feels a little brighter 
I was planning to make some handmade soap as well, but I didn't get started getting supplies and stuff in time, so I might order some stuff, but wait until later to start making the soap. So yeah, I do have some fun things planned. 
I'm a techy kind of girl. I'm not complaining though, I got a TON of stuff, new flannel sheets, curtains for the bedroom and kitchen, curtain rod, comforter set, and a bunch of other stuff that I can't remember. LOL! 
I told him the OS wanted me to have more PT, but my insurance wouldn't pay for it because I ran out of visits. I told him starting in January, I will have more visits. But he insisted it wouldn't help. He was a nice enough guy, and I'm glad he addressed the bursitis, but I found he didn't listen to me like my OS does. I think I'm going to call the office and talk to someone on the team and see if I can "encourage" them to see that PT is the way to go.
now that I think about it, I'm wondering if part of my depression might be because I'm not getting that time to just be in nature and center myself like I always did before. Hmmm...there's a thought. 
Anyway, so I don't have a lot of options for exercise around here. 
LOL! 
He told me to get outside every day for a few minutes. I had my vitamin D level checked last year and it wasn't low at all. But that's because I do supplement. 
I do like the ones I work with, but the age level is just not a good fit for me, I need to get back to the high school to feel like my sanity is safe. LOL! I know it doesn't seem like a big difference from 8th grade to 9th-12th, but it is a HUGE difference. It's one thing to deal with your own kids at that age, and quite another when you are dealing with 20 kids that are not yours at that age. Anyway, I just REALLY need to get out of that place, because my stress levels get so high while I'm there. 
Hence the reason I wanted to have more visits.
