I don't have a copy of my X-rays. I just was concentrating on what I needed to do to take care of both knees. Even the X-ray of my old knee clearly showed that there were bone spurs present. That was something else my old doctor dismissed saying it just had a small tear in the cartilage and it shouldn't really be bothering me. I thought that was just crazy since his partner had been giving me injections in both of them for 5 years!! I'll try to get a copy of them and I'll post them if I can.
As far as when I can get it done that is a real problem. I just started a new job Nov 2nd. I really love my job but I'm the new 'kid' on the block. I did sign up for short term disability at 60% which I will be eligible for on Feb 1. Maybe I knew I might have problems so soon after the first one. We don't get sick days just PTO time which we accrue based on how many hours you work. I have about 20 hours right now. I'm in a real quandry. I don't want to lose this job and I also don't want to feel like I'm causing my boss some problems by going out so soon.
Many years ago I had been on permanent disability for another reason and fought my way back. I was able to get my Medicare restored when I was out of work for my TKR. I also now have a supplement which covers what it doesn't. So I have medical coverage that I'm not eligible for yet at work. I'm allowed to keep it for the rest of my life so I'm happy at least with that part. I do need my salary now to catch up with bills because I couldn't work most of 2015. I'm going to have to give this a lot of thought.
I have a 1 week training class starting Jan 25th with an exam I have to pass to keep my job. They do try to help you through it and I hope I'll be able to concentrate. I will be done with my initial training Feb 2nd. The second phase is for another 3 months. After that I'm considered a fully trained RN and will be the only nurse in the building. That makes it May 2nd. Question is can I make it that long.
I'm not sure I can live through this surgery again. My other thought is to just wait until my other one gets so bad it needs to be done and deal with it one more time. I've had other surgeries. One was through my ribs to get to my esophagus and never experienced such pain before. I went home on Bayer aspirin for pain on that one. I actually cracked a femur at age 18 and continued to play college basketball on it. It was seen on X-rays 5 years later when I twisted it and went to a doctor and they saw it on an X-ray. I can take pain but I'm just so very afraid. This surgery has just destroyed me. Sorry guys I guess my depression is kicking in. I guess it's time to call my psychiatrist to keep it under control.
I'm totally finished with 2015. I'm going to look forward to 2016. There's no where to go but up. Thanks to all for your support. No one who hasn't lived through our problems can quite understand them.
Here's to a wonderful New Year!
