Week 11: Clunking Along
Other Smarties have written about their clunks, but I haven't done so until now. Mostly I figured a little clunk came along with the hardware. Even my original knees before replacement made sounds no knee should ever make. You know, the grind... the groan... the creak... the crepitus. The latter sounds like Rice Crispies. Snap. Crackle. Pop. The snaps were especially disconcerting. I imagined bits of bone breaking off. But whatever was happening in those old arthritic knees (Lefty especially) was nasty and loud.
My right knee developed its clunk first, several weeks ago. The sound played hide and seek initially, popping up at odd intervals, mostly while walking. Sometimes it wasn't even there for the entire walk. I remember the first appearance, while I was still using a cane, and thinking, "Well. So that's what people mean." As "sounds" go, it really wasn't one. It was more of a perception of something clunking... but it was definitely a soft, gentle clunk on every step. I decided I could get used to it. The old arthritis pain was so much worse that this happy little clunk was welcome.
Righty's clunk began to disappear about two weeks ago. I haven't heard it in close to a week. I think it appeared when Righty's swelling subsided--and now that Righty's soft tissues have tightened up and the muscles gotten exercised back into shape, maybe the clunk won't be back very often. Time will tell.
Today on my morning walk, I felt/heard a now familiar sound. Lefty was clunking. A quiet, non-intrusive clunk with every step. I laughed out loud. "Hi there. Nice to hear you've decided to join in." Righty was being silent.
Upon having a TKR, we and our baby knees become something new. We become intimate and insightful. Our bodies "learn" to accommodate the mechanical implant and communicate to us a myriad of sensations and signals we must learn to interpret. What helps, what hurts... what works, what doesn't. We alone have access to this information. Everyone else, even our OS, is observing external cues. We are internal. We "hear" our knees.
Hearing Lefty clunk this morning made me happy. Maybe it won't make me happy if Lefty is still clunking three months or a year from now. At this moment, however, I'm surmising Lefty's swelling is going down and the implant is free to voice itself. I expect that voice will be muffled someday when the soft tissues heal and close in, and stronger muscles brace the joint. Time will tell.
For now, I'm good with the clunk.