PKR Oops, I did it again...Round 2 complete!

[Knee pain]

Good morning Bionic Woman 2, or may be I should be saying good evening, Lol. I have no idea..I'm no help to you at all, but you so don't need more stress in your life with extra costs. I guess things are totally different in Australia, we are forced into health cover, which cost me an arm and a leg every year. So I have no out of pocket costs for anything,all covered. No help, but I really feel for you.
I do the main accounts and paying, since the TRK op, I have just let them pile up, so can't get my head around it, the next day I'm clear headed I must attend them.
Other than the pain from your payments, hope your legs feeling a bit better. XO

 

[Bionic woman2]

Thanks Knee Pain, Arm and a leg huh? Over here they start w/an arm and leg and take a finger or toe every time you need to see the Dr. It's not really funny, but I've decided not to worry about bills for now, they'll be plenty of time for that. They may be fighting over me then.

Right now I'm focusing on allowing my right knee to get better and brace itself to become "The Good Foot" as James Brown (a famous American singer) would say.

How are you doing? How's the meds treating you? Mine are still Blah! Is your sleep regular now? I'm still fighting it like a 2 yr old. I better go to bed now while I feel sleepy, or else.

Have a cup of coffee for me.

 

[Knee pain]

Yes my pain , is kind of under control, giving up PT, for a couple of weeks to see how it all goes, I just spend my days recovering after exercise. I have been learning self hypnosis, practice during the day, then when ready for bed I do the breathing for hypnosis iis helping me relax to get off to sleep. Really worth a go. Doesn't mean I have a good night sleep, but gives me something else to think about, I guess it distracts your mind from your pain. Hope you have nodded off my the time you get my message. xO Regards Leonie.

 

[Bionic woman2]

Of course not Leonie I might need to start breathing, counting sheep or something.

Gonna try to shut it down... for real this time. So I won't look like this in the morning.

 

[Bionic woman2]

Okay, so I actually thought I was the Bionic Woman today, a few days really. I think it was Tuesday when I went to the P.O. and decided to get take-out for lunch. Well Little Ms. Bionic decided she could walk to another store while waiting for her food. WRONG MOVE! It seemed like a good idea at the time. Let's just say by the time I hobbled back to my car to put the things in the trunk, the owner of the Chinese restaurant could feel my pain and came out to bring me my food. I just kept saying Xie xie (thank you Chinese.) I had sense enough after that to rest up for my Wednesday lunch date. That went well, as did the dinner on Thursday with the teacher I work with. She caught me up on my kiddos with pictures and stories. That bring us to Friday. Talk about TGIF! You would think I went to work today. I forgot to say that I've been staying up into the wee hours of the morning looking for trouble.

I woke up this morning feeling stiff (what else is new.) My OS prescribed Tramadol as he refused to refill my Hydrocodone. Little did he now that I actually prefer Tramadol. It's what I call my Jazz Club Meds, because when you take them you feel like a you're standing on a stage and speaking in a soft airy voice saying... "Good evening, how's everybody doing." I had a couple left over from my arthritis before surgery. Previously my OS had told me Tramadol can be addicting, I guess the fact that I was able to hold on to a couple proves I'm not an addict. Thank God because I am already TOO many things. Anyway, my girlfriend was supposed to come over when she got off of work (another teacher friend.) I remembered in the am and forgot by noon. Well once my senior moment passed, I realized I need to go to pick up some groceries and my meds. Before I could do ANY of that, I had to clean up since my kids had "cleaned down." I actually dusted my dining room table and chairs, swept and put away clothes. The clothes went into The Witness Relocation Program... the basket in my room. I'll fold and really put them away later.

Where was I...
Oh, the grocery store. Thank God for One-stop Shopping because I don't think I could go anywhere else afterwards. I decided that I didn't need to park in the Handicap spot today. It's only a little bit further away from the door, the little WRONG voice in my head said. Talk about Green Mile! It never looks that far before you start walking. But I wasn't done stretching the truth of my abilities. I decided I didn't need the Hoveround Go-Cart thing. I'm 8 weeks out, I'll just use the cart as my support. WRONG MOVE! Can you say, DEAD MAN WALKING! By the time I got out of the BIG grocery store I was walking slower that a toddler taking his first steps. But did I go home and sit down? Noooooo! I did have the good sense to have my clean down kids bring up the groceries. Actually that's there job, they may clean down but they can bring up groceries and "put them away" real quick. lol

I had to make sangria for my friend and cook chicken for the nachos I was making. So I strapped my cryo machine on my knee and plugged that baby up! Happy to say that I am now resting w/my leg iced and elevated. The food was delicious and I actually have a hour or so before my guest gets here. I'm not sure if it's the new meds, or I'm having a really good day, but I'll take it. It's the first time that I was able to come home and go straight into the kitchen and get busy in a long time. I feel like my old self is in here somewhere. It was nice to see an old friend.


Gonna try and not do anything else until she gets here, even the Bionic Woman needs a break sometimes.

 

[Becca]

Well, I don't know what part of the country you are in, Bionic Woman2, but here in Alabama we would call you a hoot. Your post is so funny! And so easy to relate to!

You know, we should put together a knee recovery book with the best stories and advice and posts, from the patient perspective, of course. I think you could cover the humor! There is a lot more of it that you would think, although the things that happen may not be funny at the time!

Take it easy now, and just like daughter stalker, you need to turn in that ODIC card! Have a nice evening!
Becca

 

[Bionic woman2]

Thanks Becca, I'm actually considering writing a book about this (and a few other thing), but a collaborative effort would be great. It would also help the PA (procrastinator anonymous) in me get a move on. With my ADHTripleD, ODIC AND JOAT (Jack of All Trades) self I could use some blinders to finish one race at least.

Gonna run now, my friend's on her way over to catch me up on school stuff. Yay! More adult company.

 

[Bionic woman2]

EVERYBODY!!!!!! I walked up the stairs like A BIG GIRL today!!!! It wasn't a piece of cake, or race to the top but it was doable!

FINALLY!

I'm 9 weeks out tomorrow, starting to feel like I will be ready for the my LKR on 9/18 after all.

 

[Bionic woman2]

Jamie, Would you please change my thread title to : Counting down to Round 2... DING!

Thanks

 

[Jamie]

Thread title changed. Boy, hon....you're doin' just great!!! Watch yourself, though, so you don't overdo it on one of those marathon outings.

 

[Bionic woman2]

Yes Ma'am.

 

[Bionic woman2]

I am an emotional wreck! daughter stalker Knee pain, Becca, Lovestoread, danceragainsoon, Dabber and anyone else out there in Bonesmart land, my thread is starting to look like a diary. I need your shoulder and words.

I'm having a Alexander, terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day! How bad is it you ask? It's so bad that I just erased what I was typing by accident. This is the 2nd time that happened today!!!


Basically, I want my life back and I feel VERY LONELY right now.

I'm glad I can cry here. This feeling just overtook me. My son said something thoughtless and it went down hill from there. It was something small. He apologized and everything, but my mood instantly changed. Scary huh! Lock your doors, mom's on the war path.

Another thing that's bothering me is the lack of adult company/support. Kids can and should only do so much. I seem to be one of the few people I've communicate with on here who's going through this recovery w/o a mate. I know from experience being married is no picnic, but THIS is definitely the HARDEST THING I'VE EVER DONE and having to do it alone.... let's just say it's NOT fun. I mean, It's a major invent in someone's life. However, it's not like I could'a waited for Mr. Right to come along to get my new knees. Imagine THAT conversation on a date! thought I'd be OK, but it's really bothering me today. This is probably TMI but that's where I'm at. I thought I'd be okay with doing a solo act, but it's finally getting to me.

This is not the only thing bothering me, but now that I need a some comfort, it just stands out more. I would say perhaps it's my cycle that's bringing this on, but that's about as predictable as my healing at this point. I think God may be throwing in a "double or nothing" menopausal treat with go along with my mid-life crisis, and knee surgery. That's the ticket! let's get it over with.

What makes matters even worse is the fact that I'm doing it all over again in three weeks. I wish I had a punchline for that, but tonight I just feel TKO'd.

Gonna go to sleep hoping to feel better in the morning.

 

[Knee pain]

Oh Bionic Woman...... It's all in your name Bionic Women, your not bionic all the time, it's ok to cry on my shoulder any time you want. You have been doing it really hard, I had no idea. You need a medal, you have been a bionic woman. Every time I read of people going in for another TKR..... I just go ekkkkkkkkkk. They are twice as strong as I could ever be, so I give you another medal.
No adult talk can get pretty tiring, had no idea, no wonder you flat as a pancake. And your in the right place for support (HUGS)
Nooooooooo menopausal you have to say no more, another( HUG)..... I just saw your next op is the day we shift into our new house, I think you should cancel op, and come down under, to help with the big shift. LOL.
Keep posting, we are all here to listen and give you support, it's great that you felt comfy enough to share your feelings with us, that is true friendship. I am so pleased to be your friend. XO aAND MORE HUGS. I'm off to bed now, keep your chin up,. R
Regards Leonie.......PS......just remember you are the Bionic woman 2........ And say I CAN DO THIS.....

 

[Becca]

BionicWoman2

I am sorry you are having such a time! It is difficult to remember that there is really light at the end of the tunnel and you will be happy when you have this behind you. I got so sick of reading that on this forum this summer! But now, I am about ready to say it myself. I also have another TKR to get through but I will hold out as long as I can. Hopefully longer than next summer. I understand what you say about needing adult companionship/support and reluctantly agree that this probably isn't the best time to find it. I know my husband has been a saint as I suffered (read:made us both suffer) this summer.

This probably isn't something you have NOT thought of but since you are limited (will be limited again shortly), how about church? Or other online forums? Online dating? Clubs? Just something to get you out into the adult world so you don't go crazy!

Another thought is to keep in mind that meds you may be taking can also be messing with your mind, making you feel depressed. I have read that many members have seen their GPs for a mild antidepressant with great results. This might be a time to consider an option like that. Remember that although your avatar says you are the Bionic Woman, you are really not (only your knee ), so it is okay to feel down and lonely once in a while!

Praying you slept well and are enjoying a bright sunny day! Hoping you are feeling much better!
Becca

 

[daughter stalker]

Bionic woman2 I am so sorry to hear that you are so down. I wish I was as witty as you and could come up with something to make you laugh! You are very strong to do this and you really should have the second one done. I know you are scared, but you wouldn't have scheduled it if you didn't need to get it done in the first place. I will listen and be here for you!

You have been here to listen to me cry and whine when I was inaugurated president of the ODIC. Do you know I am waiting for impeachment proceedings? I don't know who is going to get the ball rolling on those proceedings, but I will hunt them down and make them do it!

Just because I have a mate doesn't always make it easier. You can feel lonely even if you have a mate. It is someone else who should know better, but he doesn't always understand so it is quite frustrating. He thinks as others do that I am just milking my surgery and that I should be back to normal by now. He doesn't understand that I can't do all that I could do before yet. He thinks now that my knee has been changed that I should be much better. And for the child??? I'm not going there!

I will put in a prayer for you!

STAY OFF THE INTERNET! "It's only a movie, It's only a movie!"

 

[new knee in June]

Dear bionic woman,
I am so sorry you feel this way I believe it is a combination of feelings you are dealing with.
You missed the beginning of school with your kindergarten children. Didn't you say a friend was going to
Sneak you in to see them ? If you need some adult conversation get in touch with your co- workers for lunch.
They will be glad to see you.
Also...medication does a number on or feelings....since we do need our pain meds an anti-depressant
( for a short amount of time ) may be in order, call your g.p.
Also, the idea you will be doing this all again may be making you upset.
Please find some things that make you happy ( small things ) reading a book in the sun, getting your nails done,
A nice lunch out with friends.
Keep posting here, we will be here for you day & night...we care about you
Hope you are feeling a little better today
Thinking of you,
Diana

 

[t4mepam]

Dear bionic women, we all know exactly what you're going through. Like Daughter Stalker said, having a mate doesn't always make it easier. Most of them have no clue what you're dealing with anyway. When I had my RTKR last summer I was not prepared for the extent of recovery I was in for. I told my boss there was no way I'd be off for 12 weeks, ha!! I told my GP that one of the hardest things was dealing with the depression so for my LTKR this summer I went on an antidepressant before my surgery. It has made an immense difference. I lost my best friend of almost 50 years the week after my surgery so this recovery has been much more difficult emotionally than the last. Anyway, know that you're not alone, take one day at a time ( it does get better), keep following the Bonesmart mantra, and keep up the posts!

 

[Bionic woman2]

Thanks everyone, you guys have made me laugh and cry at the same time. I need to COL (Cry out loud) more often. I forgot to say that I was already having an emotional meltdown BEFORE surgery. So it only added to it and How!

new knee in June, I had considered an antidepressant in the past, I think a weight loss pill would do nicely as well, considering I can't do a thing about that fat right now. Oh, and I did do something that made me happy yesterday, baking. Unfortunately, my cupcakes overflowed and did not look appealing enough to fill an order it had. They did taste great though, but that on top of the insensitive comment from my "man-child" son threw me over the edge. I'm usually pretty good at managing/hiding my feeling but I think it's all coming to a head. Can you say.. Mid-life crisis? I may need a pill after all. Preferably before the next surgery.

daughter stalker and t4mepam, I know a husband is not the "end all" especially at a time like this. In fact if I were still married to my ex during this ordeal. I'd be hobbling over to Divorce Court quick, fast and in a hurry! However, men do provide a sense of security and comfort that can not be found in a woman.. not to mention, they're at least half responsible for the household. Meaning BILLS. They're also responsible for you, for better and worse (KRS) Now, when it comes to cleaning and kids that's another story, but they might just step in at a time like this. They also "spoon" and do other stuff I can't get any place else. lol As insensitive and annoying as your guy may be at times/or all the time, imagine life without one, then have knee surgery. I truly MUST be the Bionic Woman.

Becca, I have tried "all of the above" to no avail and like you said... Now is not the time. I'll get through it, I have to right? I do have a few friends I communicate with from time to time, but now that school has started they're understandably busy. Besides, What meant to say is.... I'm lacking male companionship right now. They're no picnic though, so I will continue my solo act until I mesh with the right one for me.

daughter stalker I have been the Multitasking Monster for decades and I'm afraid the only thing that took away my privileges for a minute was knee surgery. So good luck with the impeachment. Let's face it, it's how we're wired. I think that's part of the problem. I am use to do everything and anything myself. I can do 4 or 5 things to most people's one and 10 to my son's fraction, so this having to rest, ice and elevate is getting to me. Then I start to think I'm becoming lazy, because I'm known to come down with a case of Complacent-itis from time to time to. What a weird make up huh. I may not be bionic, but something's a muck, maybe more like the Bride of Frankenstein. Anyway, I know this will pass. I just have to figure out the best way to go through it....Can't go over it... Can't go under it... Cant go around it, YOU GOTTA GO THROUGH. Good thing my prior Preschool teaching has prepared me for such a Bear Hunt moment as this.

Knee pain, I'm gonna take you up on that offer, but I think I'll wait till around the 25th or so... let you get settled in. Hey! maybe I'll meet a real "mate" Down Under. Seriously, I was doing pretty good coping w/being single through this ordeal for a while. It just came out of no where yesterday. I felt kinda the same way when I woke, but the fog is slightly lifting. I remembered a friend was taking me to run errands since my car is down and I can only do "1" errand at time when it comes to driving. So, I gotta suck it and put on a happy face... Everybody now... Grey skies are gonna CLEAR UP, put on a Happy Face and SPREAD SUNSHINE ALLLL OVER THE PLACE, just put on a HAAAAPPY FACE!


Thank you ladies, for your encouragement and humor.


She's on her way... Type to you later

 

[Knee pain]

It's 8.25 am Monday 26:8:13 morning here down under, first thing this morning was to turn on my iPad, to see how you are feeling today. Lol yes it's an Aussie man you need plenty of them here, a little rough around the edges but pretty kind and generous. I have a ripper man, who's just left for work, he's a clinical psychologist. But you know what, it's like pulling a tooth, trying to get help from him as far as my emotions go, it's like he turns off after his last patient. He does listen and he does try to help, but I think it might be me, not liking what he says......lol because he is right, and I don't want to here that.
I have a 2 year old Aussie/Japanese grand daughter who was feeling miserable yesterday, I was on face time, I said I wanted to give her a big cuddle to make hear feel better, with a very grumpy face and a tear in her eyes said, Nanny your in Australia and I am in Japan, it was the way she said it, like nanny get real, you should know I can't cuddle you. I miss Momo so much, but thank goodness we do have such great technology. She left Australia 6 mths ago, her English is brilliant, she has started kinda in Japan and her Japanese is good also, she has learnt the difference in language now and can switch from both. Momo doesn't understand why the kinder teacher or the other children don't talk English, and confused why they can't talk to her in English. I think everyday of them, and my recovery is to be able to visit them, as soon as this new knee is running with no pain, I'm off to Japan, to give my very missed family a big cuddle. I have been raving a bit, but I just love being a grandmother, I have 2 grandsons here close to me, master Mason 8 year old, and Mr Spencer aged 5 , they are also little treasures.. I am hoping to be well enough to take the boys with me to Japan, to visit their little cousin they miss her dearly also, I love watching them on face time playing fun games together. I have really written enough on the grand children, but I just love them so much. Nanny time over...lol. Hope your day is improving, and I hope I haven't bored you to tears...lol. Talk soon regards Leonie XO

 

[Bionic woman2]

yes it's an Aussie man you need plenty of them here, a little rough around the edges but pretty kind and generous.

YES! That's what I'm talking about. I like a man's man. lol I'm OK today though and yes, men can be complete buggas when it comes to emotion, unless THEY'RE sick of course. In that case you need to roll out the Red Cross, Florence Nightingale and Dr. Strange Love.

Love hearing about your 2 yr old grand baby. They are indeed making them witty these days. Ironically, I was just reading about the Japanese school system. I'm glad you have a couple close by. I can't and CAN wait for mine. I want the "return to sender" kind of grand kids, not the one's you end up raising yourself. Hopefully 10 years from now I'll have one or two to cuddle.

Thanks for checking up on me. I canceled my pity party and I'm about to go make dinner. Wish me luck! I've been slowly but surely regaining my cooking skills. Yesterday I screwed up a cake, can't take another yesterday.