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@LauraLeigh - I am so sorry to read about your bad experience with the PT today. What an unsympathetic and out of touch #@*^&$! Whenever I work with a new PT, I tell him/her that I don't believe in "no pain, no gain." After they stop giving me the "uh-oh" stare, I explain that I will work to the point of discomfort if necessary, but not to the point of pain. I am very fortunate that almost all of my PT activities have been do-able without pain and that my ROM is improving, so I have been able to demonstrate to them that I am more than willing to participate in PT and my recovery and that I am not being uncooperative. The things that hurt the most happened during my very first PT session during my second day in the hospital: 1) the first time the PT helped me off the bed and stand upright and 2) the 1/2 hour the PT made me sit on a chair after my initial (relatively easy) walk down the corridor. I think he went off to work with another patient and possibly forgot about me. (He never came back.) Thank goodness a nurse's aide came by and helped me back into bed.
BTW: From the very beginning, every nursing staff member who took care of me on my floor gently put their hands under each ankle and supported my legs as they moved them carefully across the bed and down to the floor. They all did the process in reverse to help me back onto the bed. They placed my walker where I could easily reach and hold on to it for support and walked with me -- early on holding the back of my gown -- to make sure I didn't stumble and fall. Hubby watched this maneuver and he did exactly the same hands-under-the-ankles move when he helped me transfer from floor to bed and bed to floor when we returned from the hospital. I got lulled into a false sense of security and discovered that not all hospital staff were trained to do this. The fellow who pushed my wheelchair to hubby's car at discharge dropped my legs as we were making the transfer - ouch! I've taken to providing unknown people with specific instructions about the best way I know for them to help me. Everyone is well-meaning, but their aid is sometimes counter-productive. I try not to sound too bossy or control-freakish, but they are MY knees. I also gratefully express lots of thanks because I sure couldn't / can't do this on my own.
I hope your meds work to help get your pain (back) under control. If not, please speak up. Also, I suggest that you let the nurse in charge know that you needed help getting back into bed after 30+ painful minutes but no one responded for 15 minutes to your call button. Ask for his/her help in dealing with the source of your physical and emotional pain as well as the response time issue. He/she may recommend that you speak to your OS as well.
I'm sure you've read that others here have broken down and cried in pain and frustration - and I'm sure from the fear of being so uncharacteristically helpless in a strange place and in a familiar body which is acting and re-acting in unfamiliar ways. I can't believe that you sat there crying -- long and loudly I assume -- and no one came by to check on you. One evening when two nurse's aides were in my room doing some procedure, a man down the hall started yelling and swearing about how no one was helping him and he wanted out of there. The two aides immediately rushed out of my room as did most of the rest of the staff from the commotion I could hear outside. Two security guards arrived at one point to oversee the situation and provide support. After things settled down and they were leaving, I heard them talking to someone as they passed by my door. One said that the man wanted to call the police to arrest the security guards. Anyway, all ended peacefully as far as I could tell, but I was glad that the staff responded immediately to someone in distress.
I don't want to alarm you but getting on and off the toilet was the most difficult part of my hospital stay and return home. Ask the nurses or the OT for help in trying to find the best, least painful, and safest way to this. At discharge, my OT helped me order a toilet safety rail for our home bathroom. When the technician arrived, what he presented us with was a bunch of rods and fasteners. I looked at the plastic wrapping and said, "There are no instructions or diagrams included here." He said, "It's easy to assemble." I essentially asked him how. He actually wasn't supposed to do the installation by company policy, but he said he would help put it together. He was running late and wanted to get out of there as quickly as possibly. He had no tools with him, so hubby went to retrieve some. He spent some time trying to put the railing together, huffing and puffing, and waving the tools in the air in frustration. When it was finally completed, it didn't fit in the area around the toilet, and he said we could "refuse delivery." At that point I was really scared and wondered how I would be able to use that most essential bathroom feature. All that I would be able to do would be to fall down on the seat from a standing position. Or maybe get a commode or riser at this late stage in the game??? Fortunately, a home health coordinator arrived to save the day. She looked at our bathroom setup and showed me how to push my walker over the toilet so that the handles and the front of the walker formed a little protective cage around the toilet -- pretty much what the safety rail was supposed to do, I think. By using the walker's hand rails plus the sturdy sink counter top right next to the toilet, I was able to lower myself onto and push off the toilet seat safely. It was painful for sure, but less so each week. I am still using the walker for this purpose and pushing off from the counter top, but it is no longer a painful experience. On a future red letter day, I'll be able to get on and off the toilet hands-free. Remember: this too shall pass.
I hope that you can get some sleep tonight and that tomorrow will be a better day for you. If you're not ready to go home yet and need to spend time in rehab, then that's part of your recovery journey. You do need a strong support system for your recovery whatever your location, so that may be your best option. Stay strong. We're here for you.