@zinnia What they are saying to you about this actually makes a lot of common sense -- if your inner tissues have been disturbed so frequently over a 2 year period, I can imagine it being more difficult to heal well--and let's face it, none of us are young Olympic athletes who can withstand 3 or 4 surgeries over a short period of time with little repercussion. And since you were (relatively) pain free and moving about so much, it was probably such a shock to you to see that fluid draining out. It is probably better for you to be in the hospital right now, and I can't imagine they are encouraging you to be flying around too much! Glad you have gotten your meds straight now too. It is always those details that annoy and crop up when you can least deal with them.
I don't want to take over your thread, but to answer your question about me, I have finally decided on the hospital and revision surgeon, and it will hopefully occur the first week of July. I am working on many unrelated loose ends beforehand, and it took a lot to make the decision of where and when etc, but I have now made it. So hopefully onward and upward.
Back to you--be gentle on yourself, your poor body needs time to heal, perhaps longer than you or anyone else could have anticipated. You got beyond that pain from the implant with your November surgery, and now your
only task is to let yourself heal, damn the delays on the other side, like learning how to have a better gait or walking a farther distance or not being able to dance a jig
or whatever. It will come, and successfully doing a task a few months later than you might have expected will have little consequence if the end result is satisfactory enough. The only job is to heal --then you can work on mechanical and stamina issues. (It took me two+ years to be able to get out of a chair and start walking without a limp, even with the loose implant! All of a sudden I could walk a far distance, but always with some kind of pain. Even now there are times I can do all of this without a noticeable limp. It just took so much longer than I thought it would. And I will have to learn all over again, but 'them's the breaks' I guess.)
No infection so far is a HUGE gift (which sounds odd I guess given your distressing circumstances), and one I am sure you have gratefully accepted, but I remember waiting for my results. I told myself all kinds of things: if the results came back without an infection, I would stop complaining, wouldn't feel sorry for myself (self-pity always has its place), I would have the revision done, I would be thankful I found the reason for the pain, "but please oh please... do NOT be infected" was the mantra I continually said to myself -- I was ready to make any bargain with the devil at that point. If it happened, I would deal with it too, but knew what I would have to do in that case, and a "plain" revision still seemed somewhat "less complicated" than an infected implant and a revision. So, not to in any way diminish what you have going on, but so far I am thankful for you that no infection has been spotted. Truly, you will have this one job to do until it is done -- heal--and you will need to release yourself from worry about all those other mechanical issues that crop up (obviously so long as not related to a real internal problem). Glad your husband is there to help, you sound sharp as a whip and I am sure you will be glad to go home whenever they send you. In the meantime, give yourself a dose of patience and wisdom that you so kindly have given others, and I hope your Easter will be a good one, all things considered.
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Thinking of you....
, and Love
after a series of missteps by staff when dad was there all last week.
