I read a comment you made on another thread about how distressing this first week has been for you, for a host of reasons. I jumped over to your thread to comment
First of all, I think in general, the first week is NOT a cake walk for most of us, and in fact for many, it is awful for one reason or another.
I had been totally ready for my surgery---no doubts whatsoever. However, several times during the first week after surgery I was so miserable I wondered why I had done it. My main issue was pain control, given that I'm unable to take any opiods but Tramadol and can't take NSAIDS. So I was on small doses of Tramadol and acetaminophen, and had horrendous nausea and vomiting to boot.
Being single, I stayed with a friend for the first 4 days and couldn't seem to turn things around. And then, miraculously, on Day 5 I went home. I had someone check in on me once a day, and people available more often if I needed them. But for me, just being home and getting past those first few days made all the difference in the world. It is still very early in your recovery, and I'll bet that you will feel better each and every day in some respect. It can be up and down overall for awhile, but before you know it, you will be so glad you had the surgery!
I imagine it is going to be challenging to following up on your decision about your previous relationship, and I wish you luck staying the course. It's awfully hard to do when you are feeling alone and need help from others.
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I felt the same way when they "ejected" me.
