Thanks, Belladonna...I do care but I see from your thread that I'm in good company, many here care. You are dealing with a lot of issues, to much PT, a job, your own business, a husband / family, health issues and the prospect of another major surgery on the horizon. It's a lot!
Somehow I wish you could take care of just Belladonna for a time. Healing your body through proper diet and nutrition and taking more natural supplements as opposed to over the counter or prescription meds that seem to be wreaking havoc with your system. Maybe if you made yourself a priority for a time and really take care of your body to the best of your ability, in the most natural way possible, your mood and emotions would benefit also.
In addition, if you're not already, take some time daily to meditate, pray, whatever you use to center yourself it may help also. I know many here are rooting for you and we will continue to do so. Keep us posted.
Wishing you a peaceful, painfree day and relaxing evening.