@MThipkid: Oh, I am so sorry. It is a rough time, that is for sure! You have had some words of wisdom from the others, but I want to add that it is entirely normal to hit some pockets of depression and feeling very down after *any* surgery! It seems to go with the territory.
I am sorry, but you *do* need help!! And, you have to ask, which is so, so hard. For most of us, it is very difficult. But for most people, there are people around who are able to help and who would really like to! I have had people helping me and except for one or two, they don't have a clue what to do, lol! But they ask, or I suggest/request.
Help can come from unexpected places too. The friend who has been the most consistent and proactive, the one who just kind of knows what to do, isn't even that close of a friend! But she has been here for me like no one else. So don't hesitate to ask people! It may surprise you where help comes from!
And, it is so easy to over estimate what we can do! At 8 weeks out, I bumped into that yesterday, and was very discouraged for a minute.
Here is a truth you need to hang on to: There is going to come a time when this horrible part is behind you, and you are going to have *no doubt* it is worth it!!!! I can say that with great confidence. Once you get through this rough time, your quality of life is going to rebound and you are going to be so glad you did this!
I am sending virtual hugs your way, I so feel for you!
