@Andypandy
I'm almost a month ahead of you with surgery (LTKR on 11/12) and I am like you. PT was such a bear and so frantic cause my flexion was not good and then regressed. I totally quit PT before Christmas because the PT was so panicky about my lack of progress she contacted my surgeon who called in a panic to have me come in sooner. I didn't go. Then got Covid so anything about my knee recovery went out the window. 2 days ago I started home exercises again, but very few as they exhaust me.
I am still sleeping on the recliner on my back with a foam wedge under both legs. I still have a deep throbbing in my knee somewhere. I still can't feel my knee if I touch it. I can't sit with my foot flat without pain after 5 minutes. Riding in the car for an hour to various doctor appointments is excruciating, even with a rolled up towel. I have found that sitting longwise in the backseat with a pillow between my back and the door frame is so very much easier.
My follow up appointment is tomorrow the 15th and I'm sure it is going to be brutal. My surgeon was talking about a MUA at my two week follow up because I couldn't bend to 90 degrees. Still can't so know he's going to be pushing me. I have found tho that by being sick and really not doing a dang thing exercise wise for over two weeks has not set me back as much as feared. My DH is totally against the MUA, but agrees it is my decision. I am so stressed out over tomorrow's visit, I'm sucking down pepto bismol for my upset stomach. Ridiculous, I know, but hard to contain my crazy brain.
The depression/blues comes on so fast and so hard. I've been venting on this forum since about a week after my TKR. I vent to DH too, but it's hard on him too. Plus he's doing mostly everything I used to do around the house (and with 7 dogs, there's a lot to do!) I don't know what I would have done without this forum, seriously. They come up with encouraging words and ideas to try every time for me.
I'm still using my walker and sometimes a cane around the house. I'm on meds that make me very dizzy so I still don't feel safe trying to "wall walk" much.
I guess I don't have any magical things to tell you to try to do to make things better. Just to let you know that I'm in the same place as you are and have had/still have the exact same emotions you are having. My knee is still scabby and is still purply bruised and today is 9 weeks since surgery. Just try as hard as possible to contain your mind from all the black thoughts and come to the forum frequently to get support. I'm thinking no one has posted more negative stuff about their recovery than I have and everyone is still cheering me on. This is such a great group!