Hello Bonesmart Friends,
Please read this post fully. And please help me. I'm losing hope.
I've gotten to the point where I'm almost embarrassed to explain my complications, because I feel as though I have made poor decisions in choosing surgeons, and also the complications have gotten so outrageous, I don't know if anyone here can offer advice for a situation as complicated as mine. In a way I guess I feel ashamed. I'm embarrassed to tell my friends because being crippled in your 20s is simply something I'm not proud of. But anyway, I'll try to explain what's going on below, provide an update of my "recovery", and also open this up for any of you kind people to offer advice.
I had my revision in the beginning of May to a hinged TKR. Immediately after I noticed my knee was incredibly crooked (overly valgus when I'm naturally slightly varus), so I complained to my surgeon. He actually agreed with me and revised his revision just 2 short weeks later to fix the alignment. Finally I get out of surgery and realize that the alignment was over corrected (is this really happening). Now I'm about 4 degrees more varus than my already varus good leg. My surgeon agrees maybe he is a few degrees off. At this point there is nothing that could really be done, and I don't see it worth going back into surgery to get fixed. I guess I will just deal with an overly varus leg. My good leg is varus, so at least it's not too noticeable to the naked eye. It is something I can look past.
Since then I have been recovering and trying to rebuild my muscles. I noticed immediately after surgery that my knee was still clunking around (sort of like a quarter thrown into a tin can), but I read that this is somewhat normal for some people so I come to the conclusion that further strengthening my knee could fix this.
I am now 3 months since the operation and am very unstable still. It's like trying to walk with the ground beneath you rocking back and forth. Visually, the varus/valgus instability is extremely clear as well. I guess one way to explain this is that it's as if my knee is a seesaw, the tibia is the triangle balancing post and my femur is where the two little kids sit and jump back and forth.
So I tell my surgeon about this problem (I went to NYC for the surgery and don't see him often so much of this communication is via email and phone). He explains that some play is normal, but agrees that my symptoms are not. He suggests that I fly to go see him, which I obviously am, and mentions that perhaps a larger spacer might be needed (reminder I already have a hinged TKR).
So right now, I'm fairly certain a spacer exchange will be the next thing I have to get done (I will literally scream if someone on here says something along the lines of "give it time to heal, it's still early" for their advice. I'm trying to get back to living life not patiently wait for a miracle. I have spent way too many hours researching knee complications that I feel I deserve some credibility).
Here is the good news: I have very little pain inside the joint, only on the quad which is getting better every week. I'm actually able to bike around 10 miles per day outside and have been for about 4 weeks now, but I can hardly walk. The reason being I don't have to worry about stability biking, but walking I do.
Here are my questions:
1. In your opinion, do you believe a spacer exchange will solve the issue? Personally I don't understand how it wouldn't. After all the distance between the two components in the hinged TKR is fixed and increasing a spacer size would certainly decrease the play... right?
2. I'm guessing not, but has anyone had a spacer revision in a hinged TKR?
3. Can someone offer me any advice, give me hope, that a spacer revision will fix this so I can move on with my life? Again, pain aspect is fine, it's just medial/lateral instability.
4. I'm 99% certain I will be getting a spacer revision and really need someone to give me an overview of the recovery. I've already read the the thread from skigirl. From my understanding the only healing that would be needed is the soft tissue, skin from re-opening the incision. I feel like I could pretty much walk fine the next day if that's the case, but have seen mixed reviews from 3 days to 3 months online so not sure what to believe.
5. Does anyone have any advice on how to stay positive? I'm in a deep depression from this.
6. This whole mess was created by surgeons. The high tibial osteotomy I got was the worst surgery ever and did me such a disservice. When I got that surgery the doctor told me that it would not hurt the success rate of a TKR if I decide to go down that route. I come to find out that the doctor has only done 5 HTOs in his whole career and knows very little about the procedure. His operation increased the tibial slope of my knee, which is why the 2 ACL surgeries I had after this operation failed within 2 weeks. It was like putting a skateboard on a hill. Obviously it will roll down.
It also destroyed my PCL and my collateral ligaments. Another doctor told me that he way over-corrected the bow of my leg with the HTO. I'm considering taking legal action. What do you guys think? Do I have a case? One thing I'm scared of is starting a lawsuit before my knee is in a manageable place because I don't want to scare my current surgeon from operating on me.
I just want to walk. I can hardly remember when life was good. Praying for a miracle here. Starting to consider amputation to be done with this nightmare.
Tom