One of the hardest things for me is trying to tell the surgeon, or anyone for that matter, how the knee feels.
How to put it in words. It also seems like somedays it feels differently than others. I have an appointment with the revisionist coming up on the 30th. I want to tell him how it feels. I want him to listen. These guys always seem to have so little time. He also didn't believe me about my leg length discrepancy and wouldn't look at the x-rays (proof). I've had many second opinions and they ALL felt this was not possible. The last guy was convinced after he sent me to get x-rays that proved my LLD.
Today when I walked a bit on it - it felt loose at first, then as I walked and put my weight on it, it feels like the spacer is made out of rubber...like a rubber ball. Then it feels tight- although I can still move it. Then pain - mostly in front. This is what makes me feel like maybe it's too thick (after all it came out 2.7 cm longer). But you would think that this would give me little ROM.
MY ROM is fantastic - I haven't measured it but it has always been 0-140+.
When I stand on it (one of the hardest things for me to do) it feels like I'm balancing on a rubber ball. I can move my leg around in a circular motion from my knee... most normal humans can't do this! BUT I can also stand on it in a yoga tree pose - go figure.
SO - is it too loose or too tight? The soft tissue around it feels tight! Always! Also - I DID have femoral nerve damage following the surgery that lasted a while but my last nerve conduction test shows that as healed. An earlier test showed the femoral nerve damage and reported it was "stretch damage".
It's all so confusing. This new OS is thinking about yet another, thicker spacer to give me more stability. But - maybe it's already too thick.
AHHH!!!!!!!!!!
What do I tell him? How do I fix this (I WILL NOT GIVE UP!!)
I really think the right diagnosis and a good OS can save me. I just don't know what to say or do.
rambling again!

rah
PS - right knee feels good!