Hi Nora,
I am only 5 weeks post a hip op and I can understand you saying you might need to see someone in the future about your emotions. It is such a roller coaster and so much more emotional than i thought it would be. Life around joints, hips, vulnerability, lack of control etc hits us all in such different ways emotionally and physically. Could you get yourself access to relaxation/mediatation tapes/CD's or internet. I find they support me in being more positive. There lots of free recordings on Youtube.
It is amazing that we all seem to have a passion. Recently some Bonesmarties have been talking about their horse riding, yours seems to be your choir and mine is swimming. Look after yourself
Karen