Good morning new virtual friends!!
After wallowing in pain and trauma induced self-pity for a week, I’ve awoken feeling a wee bit like the old me today. No more Debbie-Downer here!! I believe this is a combo of a number of things which are beneficial for everyone going thru this.
The first is time; life today is all about instant gratification. I believe my physical discomforts have been hindering what little patience I have to begin with. I have to be grateful for just what all I have accomplished and overcome this past week (and the last 60 years) and not forget that I’m here and always find a way to overcome any obstacles.
Second, is remembering this is MAJOR surgery! Joint replacement has become so routine and successful, there is a belief that this is just a bump in the road. I forgot just how big trading out a body part (or three) for a metal implant can be!! For me, mobility is life and as the pain and uncertainties increased so did my fear of losing my independence! Once again, just slowing down my brain, and recalling past challenges has increased my confidence in the ability of my body to heal.
Third, by good (or bad) luck depending on how you look at it, my IV Antibx were not delivered to my home as scheduled. Therefore I had to go into the ID Dr infusion center yesterday and the drugs were changed to 24 hour ones vs twice a day. The great thing about this was it gave me a night and morning off from the high-powered ones that were eating my guts out, literally, AND brought me into a facility with an NP who was able to address the swelling and pain in my hand (from one of the 12 IVs in the last 3 weeks). She also prescribed an anti fungal for this particularly pesky yeast infection. Both my hand and my “nether” regions are much better.
Fourth, my pain is now completely controlled with Tylenol alone which means my gut is returning to normal with constipation a past annoyance.
Fifth, and maybe the most important, my hair was washed by my sweet husband over our kitchen sink. Im not exactly sure why this was transformative but it was. I’ve always loved being shampooed at the salon-the warm water and touch feels so great. Well, having this done by my husband was really sensual. We giggled and I reached and touched his fingers in my hair and just suddenly I knew everything is going to be ok. I think just touching and being caressed so tenderly after weeks of being “handled” vs actually touched made my

full.
So my advice is to not get so caught up in the details of every twinge and try and keep the “worry horse” in the barn before it gallops uncontrollably away. If you are losing it, try and find a way to comfort yourself at a basic level. The right touch from the right person, or animal, or object can help ground your thoughts and help your mind recall past pleasures.
Have a wonderful week!! I will check in after the surgeons appointment on Tuesday.
Cheers, Lisa