Hi Everyone
Thanks for all the happy new years and baby congrats! Can't believe he will be 3 months old on the 25th. He's so much fun. I just can't get enough of him.
I will be going back to work on Thursday, Feb20th. Still hurts so much to walk. THe tibia and the ankle. Knee hurts some too but it's the lower leg that's getting me. I will still do PT twice a week after work. We will focus more on the knee next week. All my PT has been focused on my ankle area. The broken bone just is what it is. Slow going since part of the bone is actually missing from the osteo surgery.
I know all of you had been through this....so depressing thinking about possibly never walking without pain. The tibia has enough bone now that dr said I can do a little impact type stuff in another month but it hurts so much just to walk and it's disheartening since I just wonder if I will ever be "normal" again and look forward to a nice walk where I'm not distracted by the pain.
Being off work so long has really messed up my employment. I have lost service months and will have to work longer to make it up. Of course financially it has made an impact. I can buy back the service time but it's too expensive. I had no idea this was coming but I got a letter that I would no longer be employed and was going to be put on the re-employment list in the even I could return to work assuming a position was still vacant. I had already made plans to return to work on Feb 20 but if I hadn't I would no longer have my job as of the 27th! It was quite a shock. Then yesterday the benefits person called to see what was going on because he had to cancel my insurance as of the end of the month if I was not going back to work by the 27th He won't cancel my insurance of course because I told him I'd already made arrangements to go back to work on Thursday but just the thought of how hung out to dry I would be if I was unable to work was scary.
So regardless if I am uncomfortable, I will be working full time, no short day and no shortened week! It all makes me so mad because it's all about my tibia/ankle and remember I went in for a KNEE operation! Not to have my tibia infected/removed and cracked in two. Sorry about venting but it just really makes me mad. I knew something was wrong 2 months before I got any medical attention to the brewing problem. My ortho completely blew me off even denying me proper pain med let alone ignoring that I couldn't walk and had osteomyelitis from day one of my knee replacement.
If it was not for my little grandson I think I might be pretty depressed. But you can't have bad feelings when you are filled with the joy a grandchild brings. And he is such a sweet one. He cries only when he's hungry and even then he is so sweet and polite about it. Sometimes he does a funny little fake one syllable cry like he's just checking to see if he can get a rise out of us. My daughter takes him to Mommy and Me and they had a valentine party yesterday. I need to use my phone and post a pic of these babies. They are all about the same size sitting on a couch and it's adorable. They are in various states, only one is bawling. My little guy is leaning away from them all like he's Hugh Hefner...kind of aloof and just observing. ha! I buy silly things for him and he loves it. Just got him a pair of sunglasses.
Also can you believe they make something called a TEEPEE PEE PEE. It's a little teepee made of fabric (I chose the golf motif) that you put on the little boy baby's little hose so they don't squirt you in the face when you change the diaper. Anyway it's all so much fun that when he's here the pain of walking is just not important, all that matters is little Owen. Oh I got him the new sippy cup that was on the shark tank. He's going to be baby cool wearing his new wool cap, shades and a hot new sippy cup. haha.
I hope everyone is enjoying watching the Olympics. I think I will see if someone has started a thread on that. Kind of fun that we are international!
Take good care everyone and as always thank you for listening! it's so nice not to be judged here and not to feel like I need to filter what I say. You have all been through the same feelings,disappointments at one time or another and understand.
XOXO Marianne
United Kingdom
I will be watching for an update from you.... take care my friend.
