So, I'm wide awake - in pain, early on the morning of the 19th. The day that I should have been going in for my replacement. But I was phoned 3 days ago to inform e that my consultant's list was cancelled for today. No reason, just cancelled. I've already waited an extra month because of delays, and I just feel so helpless. I was ready, both mentally & physically but now I'm in limbo. I don't quite know what to do. My mobility is getting worse as is the pain. I'm on the maximum pain relief I can take, I'm not thinking clearly & I'm still trying to work as best I can whilst also caring for my Husband & my Mother. All my plans are in disarray - again! Absolutely fed up.