@Josephine,
@Celle,
@pumpkin...or anyone out there!
I need advice, support, or even a pep talk, please!
Before I begin with the main issue here's an update on meds: everything is going smoothly, pain under control, and my doctor was wonderful in offering her support, reassurance, and stressing the need for proper amount of pain medicine, especially in the early part of recovery. The article from Celle on medication, and my doctor's talk have really calmed me down! Thank goodness!!
My knee is bending at 95 now, extension measured at 5 yesterday and 0 a week ago (?), but I don't worry about it because overall doing great.
The most upsetting thing right now is my scar!! When they first took the bandage off a couple weeks ago, I was shocked at the mess! It was puckered, jagged, creased, and it was sticking up because it was as thick as a ring finger!!! My husband joked saying it looked like the thick stitches on a cadaver. We pointed it out to the assistant, but he just shrugged and said it looked fine to him. We laughed it off then, thinking it was just swollen and it would flatten out in no time. Needless to say it hasn't!
Friends and family have commented on how different it looks this time. Home PT and my primary Doctor looked at it too, but didn't say anything because I think they were more worried about the pain and my mental state over meds!
However, yesterday was my first appointment at outpatient therapy. I know and like my PT, Jessica, because she worked with me on the recovery of the RTKR. She really is a great therapist who follows so much of Bonesmart mantra, even though she had no clue what it was when I asked if she was familiar with it! Lol!
So imagine what I felt when she confirmed my suspicions that my scar was not right! First words out of her mouth after greeting: "Did you go to different Doc...because this looks like s--t!!!
Well it was same Doctor, but new assistant! After evaluation and some massaging and stretching, she called over other therapists. Together they came up with plan to try to flatten and "fix" my scar. They are trying taping first. I'm so hoping it works. I've been upset on and off since yesterday because here is one more thing gone wrong with my second knee!!!
Sometimes I feel I'm making too much of it, yet the therapists assure me it is not the norm. They've only seen one other worse than mine. I only have my other scar to compare it too, and, yes, it looks totally different! One is professional while the other is amateurish!! I definitely feel more self conscious about this scar. We've had very warm weather, so I wear comfortable shorts out. Whereas before I got glances, this new scar brings outright stares. It is very noticeable when it sticks out half inch above your knee! I just want to cry!
I don't know whether I should call the OS and talk to him about it. He hasn't even seen it since his assistant does the two week post-op and the OS does the six week post-op. My husband thinks I should bring it up since its his name on that surgery and he should be checking for quality control in all aspects of the surgery. I don't know what to do!!!
I feel dumb after reading this over considering the more serious things going on with fellow members on this site. I'm not a vain person. I knew I would have scars and did not feel bothered too much about it, but this one is making me so self conscious. Help! I'm a mess!
Here are some pictures. The taping the PTs did (notice the scar bulging out) and a top view. Unfortunately , I don't have a side view of the scar. This doesn't look so bad in the photo, but believe me, in person it looks like mountains and peaks on a world relief map!
Sorry, I keep getting an error message when I upload a photo. I will keep trying
11 July, 2016