Woke up this morning and am trying to get psyched up to go to the pool. This is a huge step for me and I'm honestly a bit terrified.
I am a lifelong swimmer and former synchronized swimming coach. I haven't been swimming in 2 years--kicking made my left hip hurt, so I gradually stopped. Now I'm
not worried about my left (post surgery) hip.
I'm just listing my fears here in hopes of alleviating them...
1. Where to put my cane so it's near the step-in stairs and won't get knocked around by the throngs of kids. It's 86 degrees out and certainly crowded.
2. What if I go on autopilot and start swimming and injure my right hip? What if it hurts so much I cry out? Or if I don't figure it out until trying to get out of the pool and I can't climb the steps (there is a railing).
3. What if I slip and fall or get jostled by the kids?
4. What if I can't get out?
5. (This is the big one for me, so bear with me) What if everyone is looking at me? Since the last time my pool buddies saw me, I have gained 15 pounds (significant on my 5 ft 3 frame) and my legs are flabby and weak. One is skinnier than the other. I am walking with a cane.
I'm usually the active athletic one at the pool. I'm so scared and self-conscious.
Okay. My fears are documented. I realize most of them won't come to fruition. I am really emotional about this. I will let you all know how it goes...