pdx, thanks for reminding me about the rolling pin! I had been using one on the area right above my knee where I thought I was developing scar tissue. And I have a marble one that can be chilled. Going to do that as soon as I am done here. And, Ginny, reconciling to the aging process and the inevitability for some of us with osteoarthritis just about every where, is such a process and as we keep saying so depressing.
But I have to tell you all this. Today I had an important experience. The cortisone injections in both hips have really helped! And seems to be progressive, is that how it works? Seems a little better everyday. today all of a sudden I realized I had no pain. Discomfort and tightness but no pain. I took an inventory. Really thought about it. Ok, the relief from the injections in the hips may be temporary but for now, I am not in pain. My mood lifted, and that horrible pending-doom kind of depression seemed to dissipate. I was at work and suddenly became my old effective professional self. It was so clear to me how pain and depression so tightly linked. For the rest of the day I was almost giddy. Even smiled through an MRI of my spine! What I need to take from this is - I assume I have more pain to come, and I assume it will kick that depression into gear again. There has to be a mantra for reminding us all that it is the pain that is causing the depression, or making it worse. Being in pain is depressing, it isn't life - it's the pain! I'd be willing to bet we are all pretty good at coping, and I know many us are and have dealt with a lot. But this pain has thrown so many of us off course. I have felt like there will never be good joyous days again. But there will be and I had one today! For everyone out there who is new to this, be gentle with yourself if you feel this depression. See it for what it is. Don't think it is more than it is. It is the pain. It's not us - its the pain! And it will pass!