Hi Dear Person.
I want to try and give you some encouragement. From reading what you have written makes me remember how I felt and it was very much like you. So I kept reaching out to others on this sight for hope, I got it, and I wanted to hear the success and compare it to where I was because I was soooo depressed and I needed constantly to convince myself that I was doing OK because no matter what I was told I felt I was not doing well. That's in my makeup to feel like that.
You are doing very good. All people are different. You still have affects from the anesthetic and the pain medication and to sensitive people that can cause that extra bump To add to the depression. It takes months for that stuff to get out of your system. So that is very real and for some it can be overwhelming. It will fade in a few months so realize that.
You go to PT and that can really suck the air out of you and make room for more depression. They bend your
knee and cause you pain, they measure you, they can say things , sometimes without meaning to, that may make you feel that your in a race and are loosing. Then you go home and it hurts more. They will constantly push you , their mantra is " No pain, No gain", they might not even know that but that's the underlying philosophy. It dose not work well with knee replacements.
Your also in a medical place with all the weird machines, water things. stretching stuff, steaming, ice, ropes, beds , wet towels, ( I felt they could waterboard me at anytime), and a bunch of other people who have injuries. It is a place that you are not used to out of your normal life. Some people have coffee and chat and seem to love it but to others there is a lot of bad energy there that can affect you without you really being aware that it is doing it.
Sleep was so hard for me, I wanted more of it because I wasn't depressed or felt any pain while I was asleep.
Sleep is healing. Perhaps it might be wise to get some meds to really help you sleep. Pain medication, if your hurting still ask the Dr. for more pain meds , if it really hurts then you have to make it clear you are suffering,
Don't forget that taking and not taking them after you have can feed that depression.
Drink a lot of water, and eat health and lite. Some foods can add to depression.
You are doing very well , so when those feeling come up just realize that they are not real and let them pass ,
Your right on track, you might have had a very high and unreal expectations of where you should be but those are unreal and you must not compare where you are to where you think you should be.
So you just flow with it , try and let go. This will pass and you are going to have a unbelievable strong knee
With no pain, you will not be limited as you were before. Then when you check this web site you can encourage
Someone whom is going thru what you have. So don't be troubled about it. If you're like me maybe you can find other stuff to make you feel bad.
Sincerely and Best wishes, and congratulation on making so much progress
Steve
United States
