Hi Lisa,
I hate that racing mind stuff -- especially if it's the negative/worry stuff. I hope you got some sleep and that today will be a bit brighter for you. Would it help you to keep a little notebook of some of the exercises that you do and the improvements or changes that you see as you continue to move forward? I see that your flexion has gone from 15 to 14 to 13 and that IS progress. :yes 4:
Are you doing any pool work at the Y? You had mentioned that a while ago. Does it help you to mix up your routine some? Do you skip days of the hip flexor stretches and rest too? It is always important to rest, it is still early from a big surgery and there is healing from it and healing from exercise that has to occur for progress to be made.
Wondering out loud here... you mention that you have some back pain like when you try to do walking with the cane. Would it be helpful to consult with either a chiropractor or a massage person to work on your muscles in low back area? I have the pelvic tilt and spine twist from the LLD -- maybe you have that as well and could use some work on the back muscles to assist in helping the hip muscles to progress. I get some deep massage on my quadratus lumborum muscle & sometimes follow-up at home with laying on a yoga mat and putting a tennis ball under my pelvis & low back in the sore spots.
Will send a nice rubber mallet for you to pound the PT person on the head next time they make the "you're not a kid...might not be able to stretch...have some more surgery...." comment -- NOT helpful! :skeptical:
Hang in there kid, it is a bit of a roller coaster ride...
Cardie