@zinnia I think I have the ability to hold up because I have an extremely wonderful and supportive husband who would do anything to see me get better. He is most definitely my anchor. I also see so many worse off than myself, though on the the day of surgery, I will not be calm inside, I can assure you! As you have experienced, when there is no alternative, there is nothing to do but move forward, and you are an example of one who does it with grace.
I can't even begin to express my thoughts about the original surgeon, it is a very dark space indeed to go to in my brain so I am trying to avoid it as much as I can for now. I do care about finding out if the same thing can be prevented from happening again, and this forum and
@Josephine have been quite informative in that respect. Having it be an issue with the surgeon's skill is a double edged sword in that it makes me furious on the one hand, but hopeful on the other, because at least there would be a sound reason(s) for the loosening, and I would hope my new surgeon will put in a new implant that is bigger, that fits better and not make the same errors.
But if it is idiopathic, e.g., for an unknown reason my body can't grow enough bone into the implant, well, I just can't even go there...the original surgeon worried me greatly because he said anecdotally he has seen many people, particularly women, who are on thyroid medication (which I am) with this lack of bone growth problem, though he said he couldn't prove it scientifically -- it is just his observation. I note that he also never "observed" that the implant he put in might be the wrong shape, not big enough or with a long enough stem, etc, though he said he would recommend using one with a longer stem in a revision, "one that he uses in older people " --70-75 year olds, which comment
@Josephine roundly called out in another posting. He said they could use a cemented implant, but he would recommend against it, and all the other surgeons I am seeing likewise recommend against it and in fact will not do a cemented implant.
My ability to do things is greatly limited by this very strange hip -- there are days when I can walk on it somewhat, but most of the time now I just don't want to walk very far because it gets painful quickly and feels so odd. I also don't want some emergency with the hip because I slip, or step in a pothole, etc., so I am trying to be very very careful. I hope to schedule surgery sometime in late April/May, which gives me time to prepare in all kinds of ways. I sure hope things will change after my recovery, but I honestly can't imagine what that will feel like. I have an appt. tomorrow with Surgeon #4, it will be interesting to see what he has to say about the Xrays.
Thank you
@zinnia for all your truly inspiring and helpful posts and comments. More to come from both of us!