Hi all. Thank you for your comments. Unfortunately I've gone from feeling positive to despairing again after my visit to the physio this morning. I asked him to measure my leg 'at rest/comfortable and it was 60o. Worse, doing the heel slides pushing my knee back it was a mere 70o. I was gutted. I was sure I'd been reaching 90o with my heel slides with the 'naughty' foot/knee aligned to my other foot which seemed at a right angle so therefore 90o. But he said it depends on how it's aligned with the hip which I didn't really understand.
Sitting on a couch, feet flat on the floor, he slowly lowered the couch so that my knee was bending more and more. The first time he did it to where I had to stop him it was at 77o. The next few only reached about 70o. Lying on my side he did other exercises but the knee never went beyond about 72o. He used a measure each time.
I did say to him on arrival about being happy to push the knee to discomfort but not to actual pain which he agreed with.
He emphasised the need to get the knee weight bearing. So my main exercises now are the sit, stand, sit ones, all slowly with no help from my hands. I did some and after each one he lowered the couch. I was surprised that I could do it (remember I have long legs!!). He wants me to do these hourly. 10 each time. Also to carry on with the heel slides and over the weeks get to the stage of holding each of the 20 for 30 seconds.
Since coming home at 10am I've become more and more unhappy. Consequently I've done nothing today. Just watched TV and tried to switch off from my situation.
On a whim I decided to see if I could get into the driving seat of my car. Once in, I was pleasantly surprised to find that my foot on the pedal was actually reasonably comfortable and very possibly drivable, until I remembered that the same foot has to use the brake. Pleeeeze don't give me any lectures on the safety of driving, I'm well aware and won't drive unless I know I'm safe to do so.
I then started to feel that something doesn't feel right about all this. I saw the consultant only 8 days ago. Sitting on the couch I did the heel slides and he estimated that it was at 90o. This is visually, not actually measured. Since coming out of hospital 2 weeks, 5 days ago, I've religiously done 20 heel slides every two hours. The physio today said that heel slides alone will not get me to 90o. He, like the consultant, said that it's unlikely I'll ever reach beyond 90o. I'm ok with this as at 90o I can lead a normal life including the all important driving again.
Right now I have no motivation to do any exercises at all. But if I don't do any for the rest of the day, evening, I'll definitely start them in the morning and give it all my best shot.
I'm concerned that, if the physio is correct, then perhaps I'll never improve from 70o. However the consultant did say that having got me to 95o under anaesthetic it proves that the knee can get there. But perhaps I've regressed and it won't. Just feeling totally in despair.
Oh, and one of my favourite beaches is Yaverland, near Sandown, about two miles long which I love walking on with the dogs. Used to walk the length of it and back. Before my TKR in January