Hi Ohio. I'm sorry you're having such a rough time. Are you spending any time outside? I had my surgeries on pretty similar dates to you, and found the recoveries very different for each knee. I had a bank of patience for the first one but it was exhausted by the time I had my second. And it was really an emotional blow to get to a point where I was becoming reasonably mobile and healed only to have that all taken away so I could start over. I love reading--learned to pass time on airplanes with fiction. I built a nice stockpile of new books in anticipation of my surgery. And never read a word. I simply didn't have the energy.
But with my second surgery, the weather here (Minnesota) started to improve. Fresh air coming through the windows helped my mood, and getting outside to walk was a game-changer. I've gotten out to some of my favorite places--the zoo, the ballpark, and of course, my own neighborhood. Every outing--no matter how brief, lifts my spirits.
I'm about three weeks further into my recovery than you, and I still feel like each week is super important. Most weeks I find things a little easier, a little closer to normal. And you have to let yourself remember that this time your recover isn't leading towards another surgery. This time, it's leading into summer, continued improvement, and a return to the things you used to love doing before your knees started getting in the way.
Put some sunscreen on your scars and enjoy your afternoon.
Jay