Glad to read that you are in better spirits.. it's good that we can wallow in it for a day or so then bounce back.
I bet the massage was a nice perk, too! I'm sure there were a lot of other muscles and body parts that needed some relief, too.
Sometimes we just need to extra attention, whether it's a massage or a nice visit with a good friend or family member..
You will get through this but yes, you are entitled to feel some frustration.
Re: the incision,, isn't it amazing just how neat and tidy they look so soon after?
I'm a little over 4 months out and mine is already white, no more redness.