Greetings fellow travelers. Today has been disappointing. Yesterday I went out twice for a slow walk with my trusty walker - down the driveway and to the edge of my neighbor's yard and back. With the exception of struggling with a walker encountering multiple sticks, it went well and I felt quite accomplished.
This morning my DH was getting some much-needed sleep after doing ice duty during the night. I awoke to feel somewhat rested and decided that I was ready for handling the shower on my own. And I did-yea! I got dressed, including pulling on compression socks and then load up the bag that hangs on my walker with various things I would need downstairs (iPad, phone, leg lifter, meds, glasses, notebook) as I settled into the recliner. Carefully I navigated down 7 stairs to the kitchen where I put coffee in a travel mug (so it could go in the bag), let the dogs out and then back in, grabbed some fruit and toast (also went into the bag). Then I very carefully navigated down the next set of 7 stairs with the walker and recreated my recliner nest, including refilling the ice machine.
While I was proud I got this done, I was dead exhausted. An hour or so later, I was still wiped out and finally fell asleep for 3 hours. When I awoke, I still was not willing to try another driveway walk or to do much of anything but sit with my legs elevated and iced. This evening, I am looking forward to moving back upstairs and going to bed.
I realize that I'm only 9 days out from the surgery, but this degree of exhaustion took me by surprise, especially following a really encouraging day. I know that I need to remember that progress is a world of multiple twisty passages without a reliable map. But today I'm more depressed than I have been so far in this recovery. I head to my first PT appointment tomorrow morning, so I have no idea if that will result in a good or not-so-good day. I guess that I need to keep telling myself that this recovery is what it is and not what I would like it to be.