Hi Angie--I also understand your anxiety. I'm 1 week out, surgery is on April 1, and I'm getting v. nervous also. Personally, I keep looking for outs. Maybe I should see 1 more doctor, etc. A this point, I think we both need to calm down, knowing that many others have done this and that we've controlled that which we can control. We must now turn things over to those we trust: our doctors, our families, our faith. We need to take solace in all of those things and realize that, while it is a big surgery, it's nothing compared to what others have gone through. In the last 1-1/2 weeks, my cousin with whom I am very close (we are the same age and kind of grew up together) went from being perfectly fine, to being diagnosed with brain and lung cancer, to undergoing major brain surgery to remove a large, tangerine-sized tumor, to being released from the hospital in great spirits. He is recuperating and has a bit of a tough road ahead of him, but he is doing wonderfully. I figure if he can go through that, you and I can certainly handle this non-life threatening surgery that will enhance our lives and that of those around us.
Best of luck and I'm envious that you will be ahead of me on the recovery curve!
Tom