Hi again,
Well June came and went and here l am still waiting for my operation date.
I'm so bored of the pain, the waiting and how contracted my life has become.
I'm still working even though it takes every ounce of energy. Without it l really would have no real reason to get up most days !
And Oh do l look forward to lying down after work and the few hours of sleep.
Waiting seems to have erased any doubts about my THR . I'm not going to 'heal' ( l really thought l could use diet and exercise to heal myself )
It won't improve without help and l'm totally ready for that now, all doubts gone.
I probably do to much at work by working 6.5h /4 days per week. I 'm on my feet alot of the times and walking / hobbling around. But l don't do much else. I do worry l'm perpetuating an internal wound in the joint. But as l'm not a medic, l'm not sure. All the articles on exercise seem to suggest it's a positive but personal choice for arthritis suffers, even when bone on bone.
I've lost perspective on this.
When l wake around 3am it's my go to worry that l should just give up working for now, when l'd planned to do so a week or so before my op date.
I keep thinking just get to the weekend or next day off then see how l feel.
Anyone else pushing themselves to the point of crippling exhaustion ?
So that you're exhausted and get 3 hours of solid sleep?
Is this similar to exercise addiction?
Am l making things worse ?
I am actually getting obssessed and feel like everything is in relation to my hip which l suppose it is
Anyway would be grateful to hear from anyone else having similar feelings or with any advice to offer.