Kinda down today, burst out into tear for no apparent reason. Think I scared my bf. I couldn’t even articulate what was wrong because it’s not something specific. Think it’s a combo of his workweek starting, so I’m alone more and I feel like a burden.
Had PT Friday, was my first day back driving, went pretty well and surprisingly it’s fairly comfortable to drive. My car fits me just right to where my knee can be just about straight when driving. Guess I’m glad it’s the left knee or I wouldn’t be driving by now. PT went well but I was pretty tired afterwards. They have me doing a lot of walking, marching, wide steps, walking backwards, walking sideways all with just walking sticks. My hands hurt afterwards, I must of had a death grip on them. I have 105 unassisted but I can pull it into 118 with a strap. Got on the bicycle for the first time, I guess I just expected to get on and start peddling around. Much to my surprise I couldn’t do it. So a lot of rocking back and forth. Guess that disappointed me a bit.
After PT I stopped by work to get my paycheck, got to see my boss and coworker. I miss them, I’m surprised I didn’t cry. Then popped over to the bank and picked up lunch for my bf and I. He went along because I have yet to figure out how to get me and the walker in the car at once. Tomorrow I might have him help me practice walking to the car with my cane. I have been using just it around the house some when I’m not alone. When alone I use the walker because my dog is 40lbs and just the right height to hit my knee. Better safe than sorry.
Got a shower tonight which made me feel a little more human. Can’t wait to ditch the shower chair but I’m probably going to have to hang onto it a bit longer.
My other knee has been bugging me a lot. It scares me that I may have to go through all this over again on it. This time I know I won’t have my mom’s help so it’d be even more difficult.
Sorry for rambling, it’s 11pm here and I can’t sleep, still haven’t figured out a way to sleep on my side or stomach that’s comfortable so I have a hard time falling asleep. Except when I’m in the cpm machine, for some reason every time I get in it I fall asleep.